evolution/involution
my relationship with jess ended in an emotional car wreck.
I sad and distraught for a couple of days. she was being ravaged by anxiety attacks. I think shes just in denial now.
she called me the other night out of the blue asking to stop on over to pick up an article of clothing she had left behind. apparently she was "in the area", and was two minutes away?? she initially said that she just had just so happened to be in the area. then it was she was in the area because she had an interest in a drink from rutters. lastly after I mentioned the fact that she was out this way only because she wanted to have a reason to see me, using the clothing she was picking up as excuse, did she said she was out here to hang out with her friend Andrew, as they were playing video games and blah blah blah. she says they weren't doing anything else but such, but I don't think she was even there at all. or maybe she was, I don't care honestly besides the fact that if she wasn't, then she lied, and all that scares me because she took the break up super hard. it mad me sad, more than anything else, to see her like that. I blame myself and the way I conducted myself during the entire ordeal. theres not much I can say about it though as ive learned to just let time do its own thing.
speaking of which, as I don't believe in time in the first place, ive been talking to someone else now for a few weeks. initially we were just friends, and she was just giving me someone to talk to for a while as sometimes my closer friends prove themselves to be no so deep conversationally. her name is morgan. for now, that's all ill divulge about this particular concern, as I hope it develops positively into the future.
work sucks as always. work will always suck, no matter where I am, or what im doing. yay.
Brandon finally moved out of Mellissas. good for him.
im hoping to have a car by the end of this year. I need to start saving money like crazy. sometimes I wish I hadn't bought the xboxone. that would have saved me a lot of money. blah.
anyway, until next time.
I sad and distraught for a couple of days. she was being ravaged by anxiety attacks. I think shes just in denial now.
she called me the other night out of the blue asking to stop on over to pick up an article of clothing she had left behind. apparently she was "in the area", and was two minutes away?? she initially said that she just had just so happened to be in the area. then it was she was in the area because she had an interest in a drink from rutters. lastly after I mentioned the fact that she was out this way only because she wanted to have a reason to see me, using the clothing she was picking up as excuse, did she said she was out here to hang out with her friend Andrew, as they were playing video games and blah blah blah. she says they weren't doing anything else but such, but I don't think she was even there at all. or maybe she was, I don't care honestly besides the fact that if she wasn't, then she lied, and all that scares me because she took the break up super hard. it mad me sad, more than anything else, to see her like that. I blame myself and the way I conducted myself during the entire ordeal. theres not much I can say about it though as ive learned to just let time do its own thing.
speaking of which, as I don't believe in time in the first place, ive been talking to someone else now for a few weeks. initially we were just friends, and she was just giving me someone to talk to for a while as sometimes my closer friends prove themselves to be no so deep conversationally. her name is morgan. for now, that's all ill divulge about this particular concern, as I hope it develops positively into the future.
work sucks as always. work will always suck, no matter where I am, or what im doing. yay.
Brandon finally moved out of Mellissas. good for him.
im hoping to have a car by the end of this year. I need to start saving money like crazy. sometimes I wish I hadn't bought the xboxone. that would have saved me a lot of money. blah.
anyway, until next time.