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So things are strange at the moment - i was going to say slow, but my life doesnt really understand that word at the moment. Strange is it's comfort zone, so strange is where it's at.
Work is still fucked, nothing stays the same for very long. basically i got to work last monday morning and my boss just wasnt coming back, so there was a new manager and a new roster waiting for me. This could have been good news, as the last two times one of the managers was going to leave i was told I would get sunday and monday off and gain a couple of hours a week.
This didnt happen. Infact i lost two hours, was passed up for the 38.5hrs for a guy who's worked here 1 month, and didnt get the weekend off (this of course went to the new guy too)
So now not only are they dishonouring my contract (which they have been since I started in january) by not giving me any weekend day off but they've seriously fucked me off.
I suppose more should be said about how our stores work... you see there are two cd stores in the airport, for sanity's sake the upstairs store, and the downstairs store. The two stores share the 5 staff members, but each has a manager. yvette has been the upstairs manager for the whole time i've been here, and downstairs is Angie. yvette is part of a christian rock group with a couple other of the staff members and is strongly against violence, drug use, and swear words. Angie is a stoner alcoholic, along with myself and the other two staff members, who isnt at all adverse to swearing, drugs, or violence.
This obviously causes the great divide.
Throughout my time here yvette has slowly been shuffling the staff so any that she doesnt like end up working downstairs. This had left her and caleb working the majority of the shifts upstairs with me doing the remaining three shifts, and everyone else being downstairs. Makes it sound like she doesnt really have a problem with me, but two official warnings in 5 months (both that angie told me I should never have been given) and countless unofficial warnings you start to see how it really is.
The simplest example i have is the one day i got to work to find two A4 pieces of paper addressed to me, talking about all the things i hadnt done that needed to be done while she was away. This could be reasonable, and informative, and point out things i didnt know, if it wasnt total horse shit. The two days she was away, the days she needed things done by other people, the days she was writing about, were my days off. Gee, you say, she's one smart cookie.
So the world would once again be joyful, if yvette was the boss that left. But of course it was Angie - because she could no longer stand yvette. And of course this meant that yvette was in charge of changing the roster and reworking all the hours. hence, nothing that I had agreed to with caleb (the new boss) and angie was put into place.
good times.
As for the rest of my life, Dave and i are getting along better and it's starting to look like it wont be awful between us forever. I'm quite glad about this, and relieved. it was really weighing on my mind that i had lost his friendship forever and the guilt of being villain of the day wasnt going away, so this has really shifted my reality. i can still feel bad for what i did to him, but it wont be the thing that defines our relationship for the rest of eternity. So, so grateful of that.
My cousins car got written off by a cop who u-turned into her on hereford street.
I get to have tea with my grandmother as distraction from my cousins new boyfriend - grandma wanted to meet him, she's the only one who hasnt, and my cousin asked my mum to ask me to come too so "the horrible questions can be directed at tahlia." Jaben scoffed at this, telling me its more than time i disowned my family.
Speaking of jay, he is still with his girlfriend. I met her this weekend at khyles 20th bday. Dont know her name. Dont care to either.
The night was interesting I suppose. I arrived after work to find everyone I know already beyond drunk at haydens place, and already waiting for the taxi to khyles. Admittedly i was already mad at them, after 5 phone calls while i was on my way to haydens, asking how long i would be. So by the time i got there I was already over it and in desperate need of a drink and a cone. but not two minutes after i got there did the taxi pull up and the ridiculous process of figuring out who was going in the taxi ensued. I was sober, and had my car, so obviously i was not going in the taxi. This took some five minutes to explain to them. jay who got what i meant the first time I said it, had gone on to say "t needs to get high, I'll come with her, shes staying here gettin high and we'll meet you there."
Eventually everyone caught on and headed to the taxi, while i sat down on jays bed for a cone.
"shit you're stressed" he said. not two seconds after saying that his girlfriend reappears. She had been sitting in the taxi, i guess not knowing that he wasnt going anywhere - tia says from the moment I walked in he wasnt going anywhere, and i suppose she's right, but somehow his girlfriend missed him saying he was staying back with me.
So we sat for five awkward minutes while i got stoned before driving to khyles.
Once at Khyles, i ditched them as quickly as i could, rejoining tia and the others. I could handle seeing him with another girl, that didnt really get to me, But then again they werent exactly couple-like, so if things hadnt gone how they did then i probably would have felt worse.
So how did it go? jay spent the whole night in a different room to her, before disappearing all together for 2hours. I suppose it's abit off for me to say disappeared as i knew exactly where he went.. and it wasnt intentional that she didnt know, that's just the way it happened. Basically, I had been wanderin between the two main rooms of the party never staying in either long enough to have to deal with j and whats-her-name and just kept myself busy with the fifty other people at the party. About an hour after getting there i headed out to my car for a moment of sanity and to put my shit down. walking back up the driveway tia and i run into jay who it turns out is looking for me because he and jon need to go to the liquor store. I'm like, no i'm not driving you and no you cant drive my car, at which point jons girlfriend suggests walking. I'm like, sounds good to me, I'll be inside. I go back inside but not before seeing erin and jon headed off down the driveway. i didnt see what happened to J but it turns out he went with them.
Meanwhile i'm inside, still bouncing from room to room as I dont want to end up having to talk to/get to know his girlfriend. At least half an hour passes and I finally sit down, watching his gf walking around on her own. Another half an hour passes and she sits in the smoking room with us - but far enough away from me for my comfort. eventually mason asks her where J is, she shrugs shakes her head and says nothing. i tell mason that he was walking to the woolston (liquor store) and mason being in outer space just didnt comprehend what I said. i returned to my wandering.
The best part of an hour goes by and jays girlfriend deteriorates rapidly and although she stopped drinking before leaving haydens, she hit rock-bottom drunk in the space of minutes. Vomit ensued, and tia kept trying to get me to go see if she was ok. 'i'll paper scissors rock you for it, loser has to go see how she is.' Shaking my head at her i said repeatedly 'of all the people here, it's not me that has to go after her. infact, I am last on that list.'
I just kept wanderin' and smokin buds, having given up all together on getting drunk. eventually I wandered back out to my car, but on the way i find her slumped over, forehead on the ground. I walked past initially, sticking with the not getting to know her plan but not two steps behind her I turned and asked if she needed me to get her anything. i'm glad she said no.
Of course by the time I got back from my car she's sitting in the garden throwing up and tia's standing beside her trying to get a hold of a taxi to take her(jays gf) home. that was not to happen though, as she wanted to stay until jay got back. eventually she got back inside, passed out on a chair, got up and threw up some more, passed out in the chair, got up and threw up, and came back to the chair. After the third time, khyle finally said something to mason and hayden. Do we get her a taxi? what happened to jay? should I find a sober driver? Do we wake her up and ask?
Speaking up i said 'I had thought of asking if she wanted me to take her home, but i didnt.'
Yeah, mason said. 'it's jays problem, he can handle it when he gets back.'
So we sat, each of us glancing over at her from time to time. not really to check on anything in particular but i think mostly out of shock. Disbelieving that he just left her there.
Soon tia and a few others left, and although I wanted to leave i stayed anticipating having to drive jay and his gf home.
They got back maybe 45minutes after tia left. Jay, who had been informed of what was happening with his gf walked right past her, looking at her but saying nothing. he sat down beside me, muttered something about her being the only person passed out at the party, threw his packet of filters at her, and eventually woke her up because she had his tobacco. She muttered something, looked unhappy, and went back to sleep before waking up two minutes later and handing him his tobacco.
Sitting back down beside me, trying to chat like every other party he and i have ever been at, i got up not long after and left. he huffed when i told him i was leaving, but i wasnt just going to sit there and have a laugh and a good time with him. I couldnt really tell you the reason, a little because he has a girlfriend to be like that with, a little because i couldnt believe how he was behaving, a little because I knew it was just torture for me to spend another night laughing and joking with him.
Certainly I walked away a little glad that I'm not his girlfriend, a little amazed that he could ever treat anyone like that, a little more confused about how he treats me and a little surprised he even still had a gf by the end of the night.
So, in summary i've >still< got no idea what the hell is up with jay, I gladly still have a friendship with dave, and work is lucky i show up every day.
Good Times.
Work is still fucked, nothing stays the same for very long. basically i got to work last monday morning and my boss just wasnt coming back, so there was a new manager and a new roster waiting for me. This could have been good news, as the last two times one of the managers was going to leave i was told I would get sunday and monday off and gain a couple of hours a week.
This didnt happen. Infact i lost two hours, was passed up for the 38.5hrs for a guy who's worked here 1 month, and didnt get the weekend off (this of course went to the new guy too)
So now not only are they dishonouring my contract (which they have been since I started in january) by not giving me any weekend day off but they've seriously fucked me off.
I suppose more should be said about how our stores work... you see there are two cd stores in the airport, for sanity's sake the upstairs store, and the downstairs store. The two stores share the 5 staff members, but each has a manager. yvette has been the upstairs manager for the whole time i've been here, and downstairs is Angie. yvette is part of a christian rock group with a couple other of the staff members and is strongly against violence, drug use, and swear words. Angie is a stoner alcoholic, along with myself and the other two staff members, who isnt at all adverse to swearing, drugs, or violence.
This obviously causes the great divide.
Throughout my time here yvette has slowly been shuffling the staff so any that she doesnt like end up working downstairs. This had left her and caleb working the majority of the shifts upstairs with me doing the remaining three shifts, and everyone else being downstairs. Makes it sound like she doesnt really have a problem with me, but two official warnings in 5 months (both that angie told me I should never have been given) and countless unofficial warnings you start to see how it really is.
The simplest example i have is the one day i got to work to find two A4 pieces of paper addressed to me, talking about all the things i hadnt done that needed to be done while she was away. This could be reasonable, and informative, and point out things i didnt know, if it wasnt total horse shit. The two days she was away, the days she needed things done by other people, the days she was writing about, were my days off. Gee, you say, she's one smart cookie.
So the world would once again be joyful, if yvette was the boss that left. But of course it was Angie - because she could no longer stand yvette. And of course this meant that yvette was in charge of changing the roster and reworking all the hours. hence, nothing that I had agreed to with caleb (the new boss) and angie was put into place.
good times.
As for the rest of my life, Dave and i are getting along better and it's starting to look like it wont be awful between us forever. I'm quite glad about this, and relieved. it was really weighing on my mind that i had lost his friendship forever and the guilt of being villain of the day wasnt going away, so this has really shifted my reality. i can still feel bad for what i did to him, but it wont be the thing that defines our relationship for the rest of eternity. So, so grateful of that.
My cousins car got written off by a cop who u-turned into her on hereford street.
I get to have tea with my grandmother as distraction from my cousins new boyfriend - grandma wanted to meet him, she's the only one who hasnt, and my cousin asked my mum to ask me to come too so "the horrible questions can be directed at tahlia." Jaben scoffed at this, telling me its more than time i disowned my family.
Speaking of jay, he is still with his girlfriend. I met her this weekend at khyles 20th bday. Dont know her name. Dont care to either.
The night was interesting I suppose. I arrived after work to find everyone I know already beyond drunk at haydens place, and already waiting for the taxi to khyles. Admittedly i was already mad at them, after 5 phone calls while i was on my way to haydens, asking how long i would be. So by the time i got there I was already over it and in desperate need of a drink and a cone. but not two minutes after i got there did the taxi pull up and the ridiculous process of figuring out who was going in the taxi ensued. I was sober, and had my car, so obviously i was not going in the taxi. This took some five minutes to explain to them. jay who got what i meant the first time I said it, had gone on to say "t needs to get high, I'll come with her, shes staying here gettin high and we'll meet you there."
Eventually everyone caught on and headed to the taxi, while i sat down on jays bed for a cone.
"shit you're stressed" he said. not two seconds after saying that his girlfriend reappears. She had been sitting in the taxi, i guess not knowing that he wasnt going anywhere - tia says from the moment I walked in he wasnt going anywhere, and i suppose she's right, but somehow his girlfriend missed him saying he was staying back with me.
So we sat for five awkward minutes while i got stoned before driving to khyles.
Once at Khyles, i ditched them as quickly as i could, rejoining tia and the others. I could handle seeing him with another girl, that didnt really get to me, But then again they werent exactly couple-like, so if things hadnt gone how they did then i probably would have felt worse.
So how did it go? jay spent the whole night in a different room to her, before disappearing all together for 2hours. I suppose it's abit off for me to say disappeared as i knew exactly where he went.. and it wasnt intentional that she didnt know, that's just the way it happened. Basically, I had been wanderin between the two main rooms of the party never staying in either long enough to have to deal with j and whats-her-name and just kept myself busy with the fifty other people at the party. About an hour after getting there i headed out to my car for a moment of sanity and to put my shit down. walking back up the driveway tia and i run into jay who it turns out is looking for me because he and jon need to go to the liquor store. I'm like, no i'm not driving you and no you cant drive my car, at which point jons girlfriend suggests walking. I'm like, sounds good to me, I'll be inside. I go back inside but not before seeing erin and jon headed off down the driveway. i didnt see what happened to J but it turns out he went with them.
Meanwhile i'm inside, still bouncing from room to room as I dont want to end up having to talk to/get to know his girlfriend. At least half an hour passes and I finally sit down, watching his gf walking around on her own. Another half an hour passes and she sits in the smoking room with us - but far enough away from me for my comfort. eventually mason asks her where J is, she shrugs shakes her head and says nothing. i tell mason that he was walking to the woolston (liquor store) and mason being in outer space just didnt comprehend what I said. i returned to my wandering.
The best part of an hour goes by and jays girlfriend deteriorates rapidly and although she stopped drinking before leaving haydens, she hit rock-bottom drunk in the space of minutes. Vomit ensued, and tia kept trying to get me to go see if she was ok. 'i'll paper scissors rock you for it, loser has to go see how she is.' Shaking my head at her i said repeatedly 'of all the people here, it's not me that has to go after her. infact, I am last on that list.'
I just kept wanderin' and smokin buds, having given up all together on getting drunk. eventually I wandered back out to my car, but on the way i find her slumped over, forehead on the ground. I walked past initially, sticking with the not getting to know her plan but not two steps behind her I turned and asked if she needed me to get her anything. i'm glad she said no.
Of course by the time I got back from my car she's sitting in the garden throwing up and tia's standing beside her trying to get a hold of a taxi to take her(jays gf) home. that was not to happen though, as she wanted to stay until jay got back. eventually she got back inside, passed out on a chair, got up and threw up some more, passed out in the chair, got up and threw up, and came back to the chair. After the third time, khyle finally said something to mason and hayden. Do we get her a taxi? what happened to jay? should I find a sober driver? Do we wake her up and ask?
Speaking up i said 'I had thought of asking if she wanted me to take her home, but i didnt.'
Yeah, mason said. 'it's jays problem, he can handle it when he gets back.'
So we sat, each of us glancing over at her from time to time. not really to check on anything in particular but i think mostly out of shock. Disbelieving that he just left her there.
Soon tia and a few others left, and although I wanted to leave i stayed anticipating having to drive jay and his gf home.
They got back maybe 45minutes after tia left. Jay, who had been informed of what was happening with his gf walked right past her, looking at her but saying nothing. he sat down beside me, muttered something about her being the only person passed out at the party, threw his packet of filters at her, and eventually woke her up because she had his tobacco. She muttered something, looked unhappy, and went back to sleep before waking up two minutes later and handing him his tobacco.
Sitting back down beside me, trying to chat like every other party he and i have ever been at, i got up not long after and left. he huffed when i told him i was leaving, but i wasnt just going to sit there and have a laugh and a good time with him. I couldnt really tell you the reason, a little because he has a girlfriend to be like that with, a little because i couldnt believe how he was behaving, a little because I knew it was just torture for me to spend another night laughing and joking with him.
Certainly I walked away a little glad that I'm not his girlfriend, a little amazed that he could ever treat anyone like that, a little more confused about how he treats me and a little surprised he even still had a gf by the end of the night.
So, in summary i've >still< got no idea what the hell is up with jay, I gladly still have a friendship with dave, and work is lucky i show up every day.
Good Times.