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I'm strange. I'm so far from the person I used to be. The person i thought I was. I rarely sleep. i hate to eat. I don't cut anymore but there are so many ways to hurt yourself. I overexcersize. I burn myself away. Ashes. I'm my own pretty little fire.
I've become impatient. New for me. i'm not used to this egdiness in myself. The need to keep moving to hurry it up. A slow burning frustration at myself I take out on others. I'm sick of waiting for whatever it was i was waiting for.
Didn't have to work today. Mouth tastes like plastic. I'm alone in myself. a horrifying feeling. Complete isolation. I push people away. And i'm sorry.
I've become impatient. New for me. i'm not used to this egdiness in myself. The need to keep moving to hurry it up. A slow burning frustration at myself I take out on others. I'm sick of waiting for whatever it was i was waiting for.
Didn't have to work today. Mouth tastes like plastic. I'm alone in myself. a horrifying feeling. Complete isolation. I push people away. And i'm sorry.