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I feel really bad that my first entry after having Elsa was so dark and sad. But I'm not going to minimize my feelings here. It really went to hell and unfortunately it's going to take some time and healing before I can see my daughter's birthday as a happy day only. I wish I could have been able to talk about how beautiful she is and how good she smells, and how she's so cute. She looks so much like her daddy, but has hair like I did. I wish I could have said exactly what I felt holding her for the first time, but honestly I was in such a fog that I don't remember.
Things are going pretty well so far. She doesn't like to eat or sleep anywhere but across my lap, which is tricky. I don't feel ready to really try to get her to sleep on her own yet since she's so little still. She has her little fussy moments and sometimes she gets really pissed off, but it's usually nothing a boob won't fix.
She has the softest, chubbiest cheeks I've ever seen. I kiss them a lot. She is also very tooty, which makes me laugh, except when she can't pass them, and she gets upset. We tried to get her pictures taken Monday but she was in a bad mood and we didn't get many. We're trying again on Saturday.
Baby chiropractic has been helping her, I think. We have another appointment tomorrow, and next week I think we'll go shopping for her baptism outfit. I wasn't planning on taking her out "in public" until six weeks but otherwise I'll have to leave her home. I have to decide how concerned I am about germs.
Things are going pretty well so far. She doesn't like to eat or sleep anywhere but across my lap, which is tricky. I don't feel ready to really try to get her to sleep on her own yet since she's so little still. She has her little fussy moments and sometimes she gets really pissed off, but it's usually nothing a boob won't fix.
She has the softest, chubbiest cheeks I've ever seen. I kiss them a lot. She is also very tooty, which makes me laugh, except when she can't pass them, and she gets upset. We tried to get her pictures taken Monday but she was in a bad mood and we didn't get many. We're trying again on Saturday.
Baby chiropractic has been helping her, I think. We have another appointment tomorrow, and next week I think we'll go shopping for her baptism outfit. I wasn't planning on taking her out "in public" until six weeks but otherwise I'll have to leave her home. I have to decide how concerned I am about germs.