the core of my existence.
I have trust issues; that i would have to agree with isk. It is very hard for me to hang on and have faith in relationships; that includes friendship, familial ties and what have you. I am a difficult person to be with. Some days I think deep inside I am a whole different person on a whole different level and only certain people have had a glimpse of that. And I really do not appreciate people telling me I am suicidal just because I am honestly considering my existence and being in touch with my inner self. I am afraid to be with anyone for fear I will drag them down and for fear I will not be true to myself in the attempt to not drag them down. I am unable to trust none other than my own self.