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I believe it's time for me to begin to put some order back into my life. Summer is ending, and the people who matter are leaving. I need some structure or it's all downhill from here. I need a schedule, and exercise needs to be part of that schedule, because I have gained 5 pounds, and I feel fat. I don't feel fat because I've gained 5 pounds--I felt fat before I found that out. I just need to work out more. Anyway, aside from exercise, I suppose I will fill my days with schoolwork and job work. I'd also like to get to the redoing of my room, like I was planning to do at the beginning of the summer.
I really want to try to do something with myself this year, rather than wasting all my time not really doing anything. I've been thinking of teaching swim lessons at the BAC and possibly teaching a Sunday school class at church, although the latter is a much more tentative possibility. I really need to buckle down with school, and get myself straight. I've got to go somewhere, even if I don't know exactly where yet.
So really, maybe it's good that everyone will be gone and I'll have no friends...Perhaps it will force me to pay attention to myself and my school, and not other silly, trivial things. Such as:
--I spent the last week at the beach.
--I just painted my fingernails "Tangerine."
--The pool is green.
--I'm trying to decide what outfit to wear tomorrow.
--To my church picnic (not that church is trivial, of course).
--My lifeguard tanlines are gone.
--I've gained 5 pounds (in other words, who the hell cares about that?).
--I'm buying new high heeled shoes tomorrow.
Okay, enough of that. And this. I'm tired. And tired of thinking. Summer's not quite over.
Goodnight, readers of my el-jay.
I really want to try to do something with myself this year, rather than wasting all my time not really doing anything. I've been thinking of teaching swim lessons at the BAC and possibly teaching a Sunday school class at church, although the latter is a much more tentative possibility. I really need to buckle down with school, and get myself straight. I've got to go somewhere, even if I don't know exactly where yet.
So really, maybe it's good that everyone will be gone and I'll have no friends...Perhaps it will force me to pay attention to myself and my school, and not other silly, trivial things. Such as:
--I spent the last week at the beach.
--I just painted my fingernails "Tangerine."
--The pool is green.
--I'm trying to decide what outfit to wear tomorrow.
--To my church picnic (not that church is trivial, of course).
--My lifeguard tanlines are gone.
--I've gained 5 pounds (in other words, who the hell cares about that?).
--I'm buying new high heeled shoes tomorrow.
Okay, enough of that. And this. I'm tired. And tired of thinking. Summer's not quite over.
Goodnight, readers of my el-jay.