BS detector blaring
I recently made an attempt at reconciliation with someone to no avail. However, I did gain some interesting information pertaining to why I've experienced such persecution lately by a certain femme trio.
Now I am well aware that my words are often muddled, slurred, hastefully stated, and unclear. At least vocally. I'd like to think I'm fairly competent and concise at written word. By no means an expert but adept. And because my word doesn't appear to be worth a flying fuck to anyone I'm going to say this loud and clear here in the hopes that the permaneance of my blog might lead to acceptance as truth, which it mostly certain is.
Anyway, I have been accused of being deceptive about my relations to Alexa amidst my relationship with Caity. Horse shite. Perhaps it isn't fair of me to count myself in an all encompassing, all said and done, manner, but I thought that my various conversations with people during this time period was equally expressive of the truth as a whole that I didn't need to go at length EVERY SINGLE TIME. Apparently, I am grossly mistaken. There is no fine line to walk in the words that follow, only a high velocity freefall... I had(have?) some poorly concealed feelings for Alex while I was with Caity. There was tension between us when we were together. Did we deny it any control over us? No. I consider it a nonissue because what control do we have over our feelings but the control we have of how we act them out? I'm not perfect, verbal flirtation insued. Nothing that contradicted my relationship with Caity which means I never conveyed any of own wants and desires to anyone, especially Alexa herself. That would have been cheating beyond physicaliality. We never flirted physically in anyway that I wouldn't act out in Caitys presence and did. I am a huge natural flirt and yeah there is a fine line with flirting but I never even got close to walking on it. But my own actions aren't what have garnered me all this infamy. I am being accused of making claims thats Alex was all over me and I was beating her off with a stick. I never said this and anything close to it was misinterpreted. This is especially frustrating to me because I remember countless times personally defending Alexa and attesting any accusations sent her way, directly or not. But the people this post is intended for seem to choose what they hear when it is that they do listen at all. Alex would have never let something between us and sure as hell wouldn't have been the initiator. She loves Caity, for whatever reason, and holds her in very high regards. She wouldn't ever let something come between the two of them. I recall it being rough for her at times. I only realize this in hindsight. I was oblivious to her emotions and I sorely regret it now.
There is so much more clarification to be made but I am working off of very little knowledge of the problem which is another frustration. For the severity of all of this, no communication has been made whatsoever, I'm completely in the dark. My concern for any of them had been all but extenguished until a few hours ago. Now I feel a renewed duty to, first and foremost, allieve us all of this bullshit and then find the asshole that is spewing it all forth and put a cork in it. I leave you with that image. G'day.
Now I am well aware that my words are often muddled, slurred, hastefully stated, and unclear. At least vocally. I'd like to think I'm fairly competent and concise at written word. By no means an expert but adept. And because my word doesn't appear to be worth a flying fuck to anyone I'm going to say this loud and clear here in the hopes that the permaneance of my blog might lead to acceptance as truth, which it mostly certain is.
Anyway, I have been accused of being deceptive about my relations to Alexa amidst my relationship with Caity. Horse shite. Perhaps it isn't fair of me to count myself in an all encompassing, all said and done, manner, but I thought that my various conversations with people during this time period was equally expressive of the truth as a whole that I didn't need to go at length EVERY SINGLE TIME. Apparently, I am grossly mistaken. There is no fine line to walk in the words that follow, only a high velocity freefall... I had(have?) some poorly concealed feelings for Alex while I was with Caity. There was tension between us when we were together. Did we deny it any control over us? No. I consider it a nonissue because what control do we have over our feelings but the control we have of how we act them out? I'm not perfect, verbal flirtation insued. Nothing that contradicted my relationship with Caity which means I never conveyed any of own wants and desires to anyone, especially Alexa herself. That would have been cheating beyond physicaliality. We never flirted physically in anyway that I wouldn't act out in Caitys presence and did. I am a huge natural flirt and yeah there is a fine line with flirting but I never even got close to walking on it. But my own actions aren't what have garnered me all this infamy. I am being accused of making claims thats Alex was all over me and I was beating her off with a stick. I never said this and anything close to it was misinterpreted. This is especially frustrating to me because I remember countless times personally defending Alexa and attesting any accusations sent her way, directly or not. But the people this post is intended for seem to choose what they hear when it is that they do listen at all. Alex would have never let something between us and sure as hell wouldn't have been the initiator. She loves Caity, for whatever reason, and holds her in very high regards. She wouldn't ever let something come between the two of them. I recall it being rough for her at times. I only realize this in hindsight. I was oblivious to her emotions and I sorely regret it now.
There is so much more clarification to be made but I am working off of very little knowledge of the problem which is another frustration. For the severity of all of this, no communication has been made whatsoever, I'm completely in the dark. My concern for any of them had been all but extenguished until a few hours ago. Now I feel a renewed duty to, first and foremost, allieve us all of this bullshit and then find the asshole that is spewing it all forth and put a cork in it. I leave you with that image. G'day.