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i am so, so happy here. there is a buzz that is rainbow colored and inbetween and full of beautiful vibrating tensions and freedoms. everyone is amazing at everything they do, even fucking up, and making ugly things, and admitting it, getting it, and then making a mindblowing thing that pops off all 2D planes into the room and then we all celebrate instead of getting jealous.
i am levatating while my feet are firmly FIRMLY in the solidness of me and the layers of ground.
waterfire happened again last night: they put bowls of fire all along the river that goes through providence. boats go up and down with men in striped shirts pushing them along, and black robed people stoking the flames. they throw roses up to the watchers and blast beautiful music. couples sit and kiss, families eat ice cream cones.
the cafeteria serves green and colorful food that feels so good to be feuled by. but you can eat creams and greases and bubbly sugary delicious things if you ever wantit.
people play flutes. our mascott is a scrotum. i bring my troll places, and people stroke him and make my babydoll give him anal. i have feathers and glitter and gold paper and i get to draw planes of existance, bEYOND a figure. my teachers are rock.
SOLID.
do you understand that everything i have ever done......the things i died in and floated around like puffed up white disintegrating paper, the things i exploded into and shriveled back in the dry climates away from, and into again, snaking around and crying over my round cheeks. ....DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING i have EVer done has landed me softly and securely and So so gleefully HERE?
i am levatating while my feet are firmly FIRMLY in the solidness of me and the layers of ground.
waterfire happened again last night: they put bowls of fire all along the river that goes through providence. boats go up and down with men in striped shirts pushing them along, and black robed people stoking the flames. they throw roses up to the watchers and blast beautiful music. couples sit and kiss, families eat ice cream cones.
the cafeteria serves green and colorful food that feels so good to be feuled by. but you can eat creams and greases and bubbly sugary delicious things if you ever wantit.
people play flutes. our mascott is a scrotum. i bring my troll places, and people stroke him and make my babydoll give him anal. i have feathers and glitter and gold paper and i get to draw planes of existance, bEYOND a figure. my teachers are rock.
SOLID.
do you understand that everything i have ever done......the things i died in and floated around like puffed up white disintegrating paper, the things i exploded into and shriveled back in the dry climates away from, and into again, snaking around and crying over my round cheeks. ....DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING i have EVer done has landed me softly and securely and So so gleefully HERE?