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i can't sit still in my head, i want to say something or do something that is just too unkind or awkward.
while talking to this person today, she seemed sort of interested what i was talking about, but all i wanted to do was tip over her coffee as she spoke...i can't help thinking about it. just looking at it raise up to her lips, i wanted to do something so she would have become angry with me. she was perfectly kind to me and i am sure i was preceived the same way to her with her consistant smile returned when direct eye contact was made. i almost had water coming out of my eye when i spoke, out of pain of wanting to tip over her coffee or pick up and throw her newspaper exploding like a flock of geese.
i think i am cought in another similar cycle with a girl i knew as of now...but i am unsure.
while talking to this person today, she seemed sort of interested what i was talking about, but all i wanted to do was tip over her coffee as she spoke...i can't help thinking about it. just looking at it raise up to her lips, i wanted to do something so she would have become angry with me. she was perfectly kind to me and i am sure i was preceived the same way to her with her consistant smile returned when direct eye contact was made. i almost had water coming out of my eye when i spoke, out of pain of wanting to tip over her coffee or pick up and throw her newspaper exploding like a flock of geese.
i think i am cought in another similar cycle with a girl i knew as of now...but i am unsure.