I can't post this!
That was only public for like two minutes. No one could have seen that, right?
"Dear Mihashi,
I know that you were afraid of answering the question because you were worried about upsetting me, so I’m going to do my best to not sound upset.
I was hoping that by asking you this question, you would tell me where I was failing you as a catcher, but instead I get only compliments. This makes me scared that you are afraid to criticise me. And why wouldn’t you be? I blow up at you all the time.
I worry that you think I am much more amazing then I really am, and also that you don’t believe that you’re as amazing I know you are. I don’t deserve all that praise, and you deserve more for not walking out on me yet.
Isn't the matter of trust where I failed you the most? I didn't even allow you to comment on my pitch-calling. I didn't trust you to do anything and I decided to do it all myself. And you really trust me? Aren't you still afraid of criticizing me? Afraid that I’ll hurt you or yell at you? I haven't earned your trust! Why do you give it so freely?? I’m the one who can’t seem to trust you when you say you’re telling the truth. The problem is me Mihashi! I’m the problem! It’s not the way you talk! It’s because I’m not trusting!
How can you think I’m so amazing, and I think you’re so amazing, but we still fail to be able to communicate?
What if we’re just two personalities that can never make a relationship work?
I thought that your answers would give me direction on where to improve so that we could become closer to the batter we want, but now I feel more fearful of losing it than ever.
Every time you praise me, it makes me realize how terrible a person I am in comparison.
And I know that’s not what you wanted to have happen. But I don’t know how to fix it.
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I feel like such a miserable failure. I want to just jump off a bridge and be over with this.
I can’t possibly post this. Mihashi would never want to look at me again.
EDIT: OH, for the love of...