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Well it has been a very long time since I have written in here. I think it is due to all the stress that I have been under lately. I am never home anymore because I work. Hallmark is going well for me but my love life is just a little um how would I say it....on the rocks? I have lied to Rygdon so much because I am terrified of him. But the other day EVERYTHING came out and like I told him the truth about everything. It kills me that I lied to him in the first place. I mean like it's so much better to tell the truth in the first place, but I didn't and I can't turn back. He honestly thinks that I had sex and fooled around with bob when I didn't. Yes I did lay in a bed with him and kiss him but there was NO sex involoved! So Rygdon said that we are done and over until I can tell the "truth". Well bud- I have told the truth....finally. I know that it is hard for him to believe me but, I am now an HONEST person. If he is willing to lose me, then it's his own loss. I mean okay- yeah I did lie to him, but that gives him really no reason to listen to people in frickin high school! Everyone knows that people in HS try to stir things up. Especially when things get better for people. But whatever. And another thing is. Rygdon wants me to get a lie detector test. Okay I will, and then he will feel so shitty when it's all over and done with. I am going to never ever let him forget! I mean he is going to find out that we wasted $300 for nothing that I have'nt told him. Everything is going to follow my story to a T because I am now telling the truth. I think that he really wants to push me away. But who am I to say? I mean I am just a whore, and a liar, and a bitch, etc. Really now? That would be me.....yeah that will be the day. Well I am going back to Groveport. I really like it there. I know that sounds crazy! But I really think that it will be better in the long run. I am on such an emotional roller coaster right now that I need to start taking my Prozac's again. But yeah, I am making tons of moolah at Hallmark. I love it! I just blow it all in like 2 days after I get it. The home life is still difficult for me. Mam and I are at eack others throats and it really sucks. I have been told to get out and I had it all planned out. I was going to move ro Rygdon's the 19th of February, get a new SUV and all that. But nope life changes faster than the stock market! I think that I really need to call Ashley's grandma and get beautified......yeah like she is a magician or something. She could never help me! Ugh! Well I have tons of homework that needs to be done. See y'all later! xoxo natalie