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today wasnt that bad of a day.
i didnt cry.
i think im just realizing that he is gone and there isnt anything i can do about it.. so crying is really useless.
the package that i had them big pictures in didnt get mailed. so thank god for that. my mom is bringing it home and i am going to take it to cvs so that i can get the pictures cropped to a wallet size.. if not there ill try ritz camera.
i also need to call jakes mom sometime soon. but i am really scared because i dont really know what to say. i guess that i could just like.. call to say hi and how is she and tracy and jakes dad.. then i guess ask if jake called them or whatever to say he is in parris island.
i have anger inside for him for making me go through this. i mean he left and he showed no emotion whatsoever. he had a fucking smile on his face. i hope im reading him all wrong.
maybe its like a phase. first you're sad.. then you're angry.. then you're alright... but thats how it is when you break up with someone too which isnt cool.
nicole and tracy said that me and jake are going to get married.
and jakes mom said that i was the one
;]
i am going to see my uncle today. he just got out of jail yesterday.. he was in there for 3 years so this should be cool. plus my cousin mandy had her baby today so yeah good shit.
tomorrow = ika&ren time.. if its still on that is.. i think we might be going to a show.. and if not that.. then we will find something gay to do because me and her are cool like that. i cant wait til she moves near me. we will raise havoc everywhere we go.
i might see if jess can do something like.. monday.. cause saturday i am going to see my dad.. and sunday i think is a dinner thing for my uncle. and if not that i might go up my brothers house. i have to talk to him though.
i decided that when i graduate high school i am going to be a cop.
i want to pull people over. haha.