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im so upset. my love called me last night from charlotte nc from an airport.. and i fucking missed the call. he's called me 3 times and i missed 2 of the calls. but he left a message and said he loved me and he will write me as soon as he can.
i've already written him twice and he hasnt even been away for 2 whole days lol.
i dont care though. ill probably write him everyday.
i sent him an i miss you card. it's cute. i also sent him 2 pictures of me.. even though they are ugly.. he said he liked them so i sent them.. and i wrote him a long letter last night too.
this is really hard. i know it will get easier.. it's just a really big change.. you go from being able to see someone almost everyday and you get to talk to them everyday.. to not being able to see them at all and only talking to them through letters.
btw. i got a cell phone. the number is 443-803-0683..
call me or text me if you ever need me, not that you will.. but yeah.
my mom bought me a corkboard thing monday. right now i have the oriole ticket from the game me and jake went to together, the birthday card he got me, 2 pictures of him, and 2 pictures of chica.. cause she reminds me of him.
i look like shit today. my eyes burn. underneath my eyes burns too.. i think i like rubbed the skin raw. sounds gross but yeah. ive been doing alot of wiping my eyes.
ill be okay though, i just miss him.
it's kinda weird though. now that he is away i dont really worry about my appearence. i havent wore makeup in the last two days.. and if you know me good.. you know i dont leave the house without it. but id rather have none then have it all down my face.
cicadas are in dundalk ;/
im gonna go try to do something with my hair.. i have to wear it up because i didnt feel like taking a shower and blow drying it and all that other shit.
oh and starting today i am offically a senior. we get our senior t-shirts today.
word.
jessica and jacob
always and forever
5.20.04. <3333