"This is how my heart behaves..."
I only start writing in here when I have no other outlet for my frustration, excitement, anger or any other emotion I dont know how to deal with. I guess its because I know no one reads it.
Shaun and I are having a hard time with the distance, but not to where we are going to break up. Currently we're just trying to get him back in the states. The last resort is him coming here on a vacation Visa and us getting married. However, that would require us to have a courtroom wedding which I really dont want. BUT if that's the only way we can be together I'll be ok with it. I love him too much to never see him again. Everyone tells us the odds are against us, but we can do it. I can't wait for him to be my husband and spend the rest of my life with him. I guess the thought of us spending our lives together is what keeps me going every day. Even though he's not here he still keeps me strong and I love him for that. He's my everything and I can't wait for him to come home to my arms. Cheesy, I know, but i miss him so much.
Tomorrow I'm leaving to go to Clearwater, but only for a couple of days. I have a funeral to attend and then I get to see my new nephew. Ive seen pictures and hes just beautiful. I can't wait to see my family and tell them about Shaun.
Shaun and I are having a hard time with the distance, but not to where we are going to break up. Currently we're just trying to get him back in the states. The last resort is him coming here on a vacation Visa and us getting married. However, that would require us to have a courtroom wedding which I really dont want. BUT if that's the only way we can be together I'll be ok with it. I love him too much to never see him again. Everyone tells us the odds are against us, but we can do it. I can't wait for him to be my husband and spend the rest of my life with him. I guess the thought of us spending our lives together is what keeps me going every day. Even though he's not here he still keeps me strong and I love him for that. He's my everything and I can't wait for him to come home to my arms. Cheesy, I know, but i miss him so much.
Tomorrow I'm leaving to go to Clearwater, but only for a couple of days. I have a funeral to attend and then I get to see my new nephew. Ive seen pictures and hes just beautiful. I can't wait to see my family and tell them about Shaun.