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okay, wow, i'm kinda freaking out.
i've suffered from compulsive binging, i guess is what i'd call it, for a number of years, followed usually by either strict not letting myself eat food, or at least cutting back on "bad" food (chips/choc./candy etc)
i've never purged before. and i thought i was getting over the binging and had my compulsive eating under some sort of willpower. yeah. well i binged on cookies, and chips. it wasn't a "lot" but i only stopped when my tummy hurt. then i got disgusted with myself. and then i purged. i've never done that before. it was easy. sort of. i made food come back up without sticking my finger down my throat or anything. i was that disgusted with myself. i didn't make a lot come up, because the fact that they were ketchup chips and i didn't have my glasses on and it looked like blood, well freakied me out and yeah.
ohkay, suneil is on his way, time to go to party :(
i've suffered from compulsive binging, i guess is what i'd call it, for a number of years, followed usually by either strict not letting myself eat food, or at least cutting back on "bad" food (chips/choc./candy etc)
i've never purged before. and i thought i was getting over the binging and had my compulsive eating under some sort of willpower. yeah. well i binged on cookies, and chips. it wasn't a "lot" but i only stopped when my tummy hurt. then i got disgusted with myself. and then i purged. i've never done that before. it was easy. sort of. i made food come back up without sticking my finger down my throat or anything. i was that disgusted with myself. i didn't make a lot come up, because the fact that they were ketchup chips and i didn't have my glasses on and it looked like blood, well freakied me out and yeah.
ohkay, suneil is on his way, time to go to party :(