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i turn the big 1-7 tomorrow!
well i didn't think i'd hurt her, but i did. i didn't think she was capable of emotion, but she was. I didn't think she'd isolate herself, but she sits in a corner doing homework and listening to nirvana on her ipod. i didn't think she'd avoid me, but she wouldn't come to french class. i didn't think she deserved me, and neither does she.
what have i done.
i don't feel bad, but i feel sad. i feel so unexplainably sad. but i also feel hopeful, and that is a very good feeling. It's weird to know that your one of your best friends for four years probably won't wish you a happy birthday- or even talk to you. it's weird, but i think i have to accept it.
adrienne has baked me something for my birthday tomorrow!!! i'm excited. I love birthdays, almost as much as I love rainy days.
p.s. the germans have arrived... babsy is her name, she seems quiet, but i think i'd be quiet too if i was in a foreign country.
well i didn't think i'd hurt her, but i did. i didn't think she was capable of emotion, but she was. I didn't think she'd isolate herself, but she sits in a corner doing homework and listening to nirvana on her ipod. i didn't think she'd avoid me, but she wouldn't come to french class. i didn't think she deserved me, and neither does she.
what have i done.
i don't feel bad, but i feel sad. i feel so unexplainably sad. but i also feel hopeful, and that is a very good feeling. It's weird to know that your one of your best friends for four years probably won't wish you a happy birthday- or even talk to you. it's weird, but i think i have to accept it.
adrienne has baked me something for my birthday tomorrow!!! i'm excited. I love birthdays, almost as much as I love rainy days.
p.s. the germans have arrived... babsy is her name, she seems quiet, but i think i'd be quiet too if i was in a foreign country.