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He didn't call. Not once. My God...he didn't call.
I really expected him to. I said that I wasn't getting my hopes up since nothing was certain...but tonight I kept my cell phone practically attached to my wrist, and he never called. They were all hanging out over at Casey's, and Alex was with us, so we were technically invited, but I was never specifically asked for or called. Alex said that he didn't want to go over to Casey's since he didn't think me and Casey were getting along. Which (since I have no problem with Casey) must mean that Casey has a problem with me.
Murphy called and came over, but Alex left with him before I even got a chance to see him. But Murphy was definitely interested. He was talking really loudly, and I could hear that he asked Alex if I was still going out with Steve or anyone, and then he asked that the phone be handed to me so we could talk for a while. It was just small talk. I really wish Alex wouldn't have run away with Murphy so that I could've gotten a chance to see Murphy and take my mind off Casey.
We ended up hanging out over at Nicole's and watching Once Upon a Time in Mexico. What a great way to get Casey out of my mind, right? (For those who don't remember, that was the movie that me and Casey saw on our first solo date. We went to eat at Applebee's, went to see Once Upon a Time in Mexico, and then went out with the guys. Our first kiss was that night.) Fuck. So I just sat in the corner and looked like I wanted to shoot myself, and people noticed and said I looked depressed. I lied and said I just felt tired. They didn't believe me.
Fuck. Casey didn't call. I guess he really was just using me. He never wanted me. He must regret me, since he didn't even call me this weekend to try and get any further than making out with me. I had hoped that at least he could use me a little more or something. But no. He didn't call. Didn't call Alex about me. I guess it's really over.
Fuck. I already got over him once. Now I have to start all over again.
I really expected him to. I said that I wasn't getting my hopes up since nothing was certain...but tonight I kept my cell phone practically attached to my wrist, and he never called. They were all hanging out over at Casey's, and Alex was with us, so we were technically invited, but I was never specifically asked for or called. Alex said that he didn't want to go over to Casey's since he didn't think me and Casey were getting along. Which (since I have no problem with Casey) must mean that Casey has a problem with me.
Murphy called and came over, but Alex left with him before I even got a chance to see him. But Murphy was definitely interested. He was talking really loudly, and I could hear that he asked Alex if I was still going out with Steve or anyone, and then he asked that the phone be handed to me so we could talk for a while. It was just small talk. I really wish Alex wouldn't have run away with Murphy so that I could've gotten a chance to see Murphy and take my mind off Casey.
We ended up hanging out over at Nicole's and watching Once Upon a Time in Mexico. What a great way to get Casey out of my mind, right? (For those who don't remember, that was the movie that me and Casey saw on our first solo date. We went to eat at Applebee's, went to see Once Upon a Time in Mexico, and then went out with the guys. Our first kiss was that night.) Fuck. So I just sat in the corner and looked like I wanted to shoot myself, and people noticed and said I looked depressed. I lied and said I just felt tired. They didn't believe me.
Fuck. Casey didn't call. I guess he really was just using me. He never wanted me. He must regret me, since he didn't even call me this weekend to try and get any further than making out with me. I had hoped that at least he could use me a little more or something. But no. He didn't call. Didn't call Alex about me. I guess it's really over.
Fuck. I already got over him once. Now I have to start all over again.