hindsight

[abbylee621]

why? why? why?

i have finally moved on, moved past where i was with him. gotten over the fact that he wasn't man enough to tell me the truth about why he moved to TX. all of a sudden, in one week, little "reminders" are popping up everywhere. old emails, a bag of letters and cards, pictures, and then boom!

there he is on the internet. do i talk to him? say "hi"? or "go to h@&&"? i don't even know if he can "see" me - if he knows i'm there or not.

i've started to wonder how differently my life would have turned out. if he had gotten in his truck like he wanted to and just driven up here. or if i'd pushed past the scared and just trusted him to know what was right.

but THIS is what's stuck in my head....

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Oh I know
That things are gonna change
The only thing for certain
Is that nothing stays the same
But all I want
Is love from you
Give me your hand
To hold on to
And if tears fill your eyes
Listen to my music it's no surprise

I don't want to be famous in life
I don't want to be famous in the world
I just want to be famous
Famous
I want to be famous in your heart

Oh I know
The wind is gonna blow
And in the winter
There's sure to be snow
But with the warmth of your smile
And the sun of your face
Shine on me in the darkness
With your love and grace
And if time hides my eyes
Listen to my music and recognize

I don't want to be famous in life
I don't want to be famous in the world
I just want to be famous
Famous
I want to be famous in your heart

And if time hides my eyes
Listen to my music
Listen to my music and recognize

I don't want to be famous in life
I don't want to be famous in the world
I just want to be famous
Famous
I want to be famous in your heart

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i don't want to think about him. it hurts too much.