contradiction
(digital made, d80, 50mm, with my nikon FG20)
evening friends~
haven't been updating this journal.
i apologize for that...
(bet nobody keeps track on it, anyway)
*clear throats
hah, well not writing here, doesn't mean not having thoughts.
the urge to express whatever flown through my mind is always there,
but somehow, i lost the courage to share it to the world.
hence, i did it the old school way, by writing, diaries.
(*nods, those ink on paper kind.)
i always want to be truthful to myself,
but somehow, by knowing whatever you do "online" will be judged,
cause the overthinking before action made.
hence, it's no longer genuine.
then, why not cut this page off, and do it all old-school-style?
now, this is the contradicting part.
i wanted my voice to be reached.
yet, i'm afraid to be judged.
oh my.
am i such an oxymoron or what?
*slaps
see, that's what i'm saying,
you'll probably be judging me right now.
aint?
hahaha.
i wonder am i alone, or do you felt the contradiction as well?