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*yawn*
*stretch*
took a "meditative nap" ... meaning i meditated, but didn't sleep. yeah.
well, i realized something. I realized that I knew before rachel said anything that she wasn't going to be my Maid of Honor. It wasn't as right as I thought it would be. I picked her b/c I thought she would be the best for the job, but I didn't listen to my intuition, which said otherwise. There are a lot of reasons for this. Some personal, some not so personal. I still lover her and I can accept her decision w/o any hard feelings ... and w/o smacking myself.
This begins my search for another MOH. My intuition is pointing at another person, and even though I question whether it's the right thing logically (b/c I've already gone through 2 other choices, and I feel like I'm giving her sloppy seconds... but I'm not - I should have just gone with her in the first place), I'm going to talk to her about it. I'm kinda scared though b/c there's not really much logical reason behind it... but it feels right.
anyhow, wish me luck! :)
*stretch*
took a "meditative nap" ... meaning i meditated, but didn't sleep. yeah.
well, i realized something. I realized that I knew before rachel said anything that she wasn't going to be my Maid of Honor. It wasn't as right as I thought it would be. I picked her b/c I thought she would be the best for the job, but I didn't listen to my intuition, which said otherwise. There are a lot of reasons for this. Some personal, some not so personal. I still lover her and I can accept her decision w/o any hard feelings ... and w/o smacking myself.
This begins my search for another MOH. My intuition is pointing at another person, and even though I question whether it's the right thing logically (b/c I've already gone through 2 other choices, and I feel like I'm giving her sloppy seconds... but I'm not - I should have just gone with her in the first place), I'm going to talk to her about it. I'm kinda scared though b/c there's not really much logical reason behind it... but it feels right.
anyhow, wish me luck! :)