"Again" ... a poem

[abbydabby]

A promise made is a promise broken
A secret sworn is a secret told
A truth that's told is a lie been spoken
So don't say a word
Don't say a word
More is said by the looks I'm given
More is heard from the way you stand
Nothing is real in this world we live in
So don't say a word
Don't say a word

Cuz I'm tired of pretending everything is ok
I'm tired of believing it's not this way
I'm tired of hearing
I'm tired of seeing
I'm tired of feeling
Let down again and again and again
I don't want to hear your excuses
I don't want to show my bruises
I don't want to pretend it hasn't been this way
I've got nothing to say.

A tear unshed is an emotion frozen
A smile expressed is a feeling hid
A word is but a dime a dozen
So don't say a word
Don't say a word.

Cuz i'm tired of not saying what i feel
And I'm tired of not being heard when I do
I'm tired of trying so goddamned hard
Just to be alive
Just to be a fuckin live
And I'm tired of pretending it's perfect
I'm tired of it all making sense
I'm tired of hurting
I'm tired of living
I'm tired of thinking
I'm gonna be let down again
I don't want to be your shoulder
I don't want to be your friend
I don't want to fix your problems
I've got nothing to say
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of sleeping
I'm tired of knowing
What's going to happen again
I'm tired of being tired
I'm tired of this life
I'm tired of helping
The same people again and again and again.

I'm tired of knowing that I'm not all right
I'm tired of this helpless feeling
I'm tired of being stuck in this shallow pit of misery
So don't say a word
Don't say...

Don't tell me how to make it better
Cuz I've already fuckin tried
I know what it takes
But this disease makes
Every problem magnified

I'm tired of holding out my hand
I don't want to pull you up anymore
I'm stuck in this pit, so throw me a ring
But don't say a word
Don't say a word.

I know what you're thinking,
Just don't say a word
A promise made is a promise broken
And a secret sworn is a secret told.