on marriage? ...and picturing stuff
no, im not yet getting married.
and i still dont have plans of getting married in the near future (im talking about 2-3 years from now)
i cannot imagine myself walking down aisle.
well, actually i can.
but then i cannot picture a groom yet.as in someone in particular.
there is one, though.
but only in my dreams.
he's my ideal guy.
but too ideal, for me.
...i have a vague idea of the people included in my entourage, though?...haha!
my sister's wedding is FAST approaching.
its saddening. generally.
the preparation is but exciting, i must admit.
im even throwing her a bridal shower party!
researching on it makes me feel more excited...
thinking of activities, people to invite, where to hold it, etc..
but it saddens me even more.
i mean, sure - im happy for her.
but im sad for myself. because then id lose my everyday sister.
she'd be like my "weekend" sister or a sister id see occasionally.
MY GOODNESS!noooo!!!
i need a constant person beside me.
my sister says i should get a boyfriend.
riiiight.like its soo easy to find one.
right now, i cannot picture myself with a guy next to me
carrying my stuff,
calling me every so often,
following me wherever i go,
making me feel extra special,
...things like that.
perhaps my guy's still looking for me.
but i know he's there...
somewhere out there.
*keeping figners crossed*
for now, i shall continue with my life.
and finish this presentation we need for tomorrow.
...until my darling dear finds me.
*haaay...
what the hell has gotten into me?
i need chocolates.
i havent eaten chocolates since yesterday.)
and i still dont have plans of getting married in the near future (im talking about 2-3 years from now)
i cannot imagine myself walking down aisle.
well, actually i can.
but then i cannot picture a groom yet.as in someone in particular.
there is one, though.
but only in my dreams.
he's my ideal guy.
but too ideal, for me.
...i have a vague idea of the people included in my entourage, though?...haha!
my sister's wedding is FAST approaching.
its saddening. generally.
the preparation is but exciting, i must admit.
im even throwing her a bridal shower party!
researching on it makes me feel more excited...
thinking of activities, people to invite, where to hold it, etc..
but it saddens me even more.
i mean, sure - im happy for her.
but im sad for myself. because then id lose my everyday sister.
she'd be like my "weekend" sister or a sister id see occasionally.
MY GOODNESS!noooo!!!
i need a constant person beside me.
my sister says i should get a boyfriend.
riiiight.like its soo easy to find one.
right now, i cannot picture myself with a guy next to me
carrying my stuff,
calling me every so often,
following me wherever i go,
making me feel extra special,
...things like that.
perhaps my guy's still looking for me.
but i know he's there...
somewhere out there.
*keeping figners crossed*
for now, i shall continue with my life.
and finish this presentation we need for tomorrow.
...until my darling dear finds me.
*haaay...
what the hell has gotten into me?
i need chocolates.
i havent eaten chocolates since yesterday.)