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tomorrow i am moving home to new orleans from texas. (note: as i define it, the day begins when i wake up and ends when i go to sleep no matter what time it is :) and when i stay up all night long i'm too incoherent to really know what day it is anyway so who cares :) )
anyway, i am tired and i'm not packed. i've been working so much i haven't had time to pack but i really wanna get out of here tomorrow before noon. i am going to write for a second about something that bothers me despite the fact that i *never* do that on this livejournal. i hear writing abotu something can be good for you.
i'm so sick of moving places. i haven't lived in one place without moving for more than 9 months in 6 years. although for 2 years in boarding school and 4 years in college i did get to at least return to the same place every year. but still its wierd to move all the time. i moved to texas alone at the start of the summer and all in all i must say i've had a good summer. by the end i've gotten to realy know and like the people i worked with at BRC and i really loved me job. at least i can say that i'm happy i'm a biomedical engineer. but now i'm going home. and i'm gonna leave it all. i packed up all my stuff at the office today to leave, and just when i was getting comfortable. "home" to new orleans. to a house my parents moved to after i went to college. so i never have ever lived there "full time" persay. although my family lives there so i guess i'll call it home. but the fact of the matter is, i just want to be somewhere i dont have to leave. i'm getting tired of going palces only temporarily. even this trip home is only for a few weeks.
i just want to be someplace i can stay for a while. i want to make friends i can keep for a while. i want to have a place to live that i can set up like i'm going to be there for a while. i want to be comfortable somewhere for a while. for just a little while, i dont wanna look at the next step. just the the step i'm on.
i dunno :-p maybe i'm just tired. maybe i'll wake up in the morning and see this and delete it. maybe ranting to the livejournal about things that bother me is a good thing. i dunno. we'll try this on for size and see how it suits me.
well one things for sure
i've been so damn tired
anyway, i am tired and i'm not packed. i've been working so much i haven't had time to pack but i really wanna get out of here tomorrow before noon. i am going to write for a second about something that bothers me despite the fact that i *never* do that on this livejournal. i hear writing abotu something can be good for you.
i'm so sick of moving places. i haven't lived in one place without moving for more than 9 months in 6 years. although for 2 years in boarding school and 4 years in college i did get to at least return to the same place every year. but still its wierd to move all the time. i moved to texas alone at the start of the summer and all in all i must say i've had a good summer. by the end i've gotten to realy know and like the people i worked with at BRC and i really loved me job. at least i can say that i'm happy i'm a biomedical engineer. but now i'm going home. and i'm gonna leave it all. i packed up all my stuff at the office today to leave, and just when i was getting comfortable. "home" to new orleans. to a house my parents moved to after i went to college. so i never have ever lived there "full time" persay. although my family lives there so i guess i'll call it home. but the fact of the matter is, i just want to be somewhere i dont have to leave. i'm getting tired of going palces only temporarily. even this trip home is only for a few weeks.
i just want to be someplace i can stay for a while. i want to make friends i can keep for a while. i want to have a place to live that i can set up like i'm going to be there for a while. i want to be comfortable somewhere for a while. for just a little while, i dont wanna look at the next step. just the the step i'm on.
i dunno :-p maybe i'm just tired. maybe i'll wake up in the morning and see this and delete it. maybe ranting to the livejournal about things that bother me is a good thing. i dunno. we'll try this on for size and see how it suits me.
well one things for sure
i've been so damn tired