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hmmmmm this weekend was sort of interesting or at least sunday and monday were and then on goes the week i dont like school its boring and there are so many things out there that id rather be doing and people id rather be spending my time with than having to go sit in a fuckin building and move room to room for hours at a time a day. then theres work hey its ok i spose but id still rather be doin other stuff and hangin out with other people i guess its pretty cool the fact that i dont have to work a ton of hours a day but still the hours are right in the middle of my afterschool time between when i get out of school and then when i go to sleep so i still cant really do much that i want to in the time that i have. who knows im too much of a fuckin slacker and im not doin shit really successfully other than what seems to be pissin the person who matters the most to me off even if i dont mean to it happens its rediclous how the fuck do i manage to do such a thing i dunno im thinkin it has something to do with the way my brain works and stuff of the sort maybe it doesnt maybe im just looking for something to blame it on how in the fuck coudl it be the way my brain works who knows i must say now i really wish i could just go take some of my shit, a few people i wouldnt mind bein around for a few days and just takin off somewhere somewhere where time doesnt matter when you wake up and when you go to bed when you eat and when you take care of stuff in general doesnt matter somewhere where there are no due dates somewhere where there are no problems somewhere where there is at least just a week of luxury and lounging around with great people at your side, if only i could do this. hmmmm man i really dont feel motivated to do a whole lot right now i dont even know what the hell it is i keep letting small shit bug me shit that most normal people wouldnt be bothered by stuff that most people wouldnt give a fuck about but it does it gets to me i dont know what the fuck it is i find it kinda weird that i allow such things to get at me like i do oh well it all blows over rather quickly and im not bugged by it after a small amount of time who knows at the moment i really wish i could be spending much more time with my abbi itd be wonderful shes the one person who when im with her everything goes away and i feel like i have no problems or anything of the sort hmmm well if you do read this abbi i love you alot and im sorry about my being a bitch tonight i dont know what the hell caused it who knows maybe im jsut a bitch in general