who knows
man i wish i could read minds right now it would be rather helpful hell i dont seem to be much help at the moment and its rather fustrating ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont even know i kinda want to scream and hit something at the same time who knows maybe not hit something but use my head to hit it thats it haha that would be the way to use my head it doesnt seem to be doing much for me at the moment bang bang bang bang is what id do i say against a piece of wood or the door but no no nvm i shant do such things it would not solve anything hmm i wish i cuould read minds hmm im thinking i wish quite a few things right now if i cuould just go and sit somewhere in the mountians in some clearing looking up atthe sky and talking to people or at the very top looking over the city i need to go somewhere where my mind can breathe so to say because there is only one real time at the moment that it can do that and im not with the person who allows my mind to do this unfortunately hmmm and with whats going on its not really going to allow itslf to breathe hahah hmmm wow who knows some place where the stars and the moon show and there is a nice warm breeze and its not too hot or too cold would be absloutely wonderful or if i could just be told sraight up what is going on in peoples heads because i dont like to guess because generaly i think im right about whats going on in a hed or how somone is feeling untill it happens and then they hole up and wont talk who knows maybe im being selfish with thinking that i wish they whould tell me what goes on maybe im thinking too much about myself instead of the other person or people maybe im just looking to feel useful in some way that i dont currently feel useful who knows i sure as hell dont i dont even know what goes on in my own head at the moment hell im sure none of what ive just said makes any sense at all but what can i do who knows maybe it feels good to get this out and randomly rant about shit that may not make sense to anyone but myself but maybe it does maybe there are people out there who read it and say hmm it maks senses but im thinkin its mostly just a ton of random words put out and that what ever it says is just gonna confuse people ahhhhh if feels like what im being told makes sense or its trying to imply stuff once again back to the telling me strait forward but who knows ahhh perhaps im just thinking of myself who knows? who knows? who knows? i sure dont if i seem to be being self centered i sure as hell dont mean to do it what can i do when all i am actually trying to do is be caring and listen and just help?