I close my eyes and hope they will never open again .... youthink thats bad?
I love my icon.
Aside from that I really ought to be doing work right now. But I can't, I left my poetry book at home and I am at the medical library for reasons that I can't begin to explain. I just found out I have a paper due on the 28th, 29th, 1st, and 3rd and a test on the 8th. I'm pretty excited to say the least. I really ought to hang out more in the library, I might get any work done at all. The new schedule of classes came out this week and the english classes offered are quite exciting, its rather odd to be excited about english classes, especially with some of the english class experiences I have had recently. Damn stupid english 301 professor.
So I don't really wanna say much about the car thing, cept my back still hurts and I'm tired all the time, and most likely I really should go to the doctor about my ribs hurting but I'm deciding to suck it up, maybe I'll just go in like a month for everything that is wrong and they can just schedule me with a whole bunch of appointments for random and specific things. I'm not too keen (how do you spell that word....) on this library to say the least. Our library is much cooler theres a starbucks and everything. Not that starbucks makes a plce cool, UVA is a good example of that, you can't put a tarbucks in a plan 9 you just cant. its a bad god damn Idea! Anyhoo. So lots of things hurt and for once I really didn't enjoy the valium they gave me. It just made me sleepy, I mean, not that i'm not used to that its just that I thought maybe it would make some of the pain go away and it really didn't at all. Whats up with that? Why would you give someone a sleep aid for a muscle pain. Muscle relaxers my ass, they are all sleeping pills, and I don't need any help sleeping recently, which is damned weird. Everything is upside down. But I have some faith in the fact that its all going to come back right soon. Which I assume is a good thing, someone has to believe that shit right?
I saw an excellent movie and I can't remember if I said anything about it on here yet, although I'm sure everyone I talk to on here has already seen it. That Eternal sunshine movie. Iwish I had seen it with Bill, it would have been much better because he probably would have thought I didn't understand and would have tried to explain it to me the whole time. Kinda cute, that or we would have gotten drunk and spent so much time cracking on the movie that we wouldn't have watched but half of it. Either way, most likely it would have been more fun and less sad. After that movie I just wanted to crawl into a ball and pretend I really did have some sort of significant other regardless of how much it wasn't working out. Speaking of which, I was supposed to see Brad today. I'm realizing how sort of mean that tie in is and also that I don't reallt care. Its weird that brad wants to even see me, its weird to me sometimes that we still talk becuse I thought it would go one oway or the other, and it seems to have gone the other and i"m not sure if thats necesarily a good thing. I'm an all or nothing type of person with some types of people some of the time. Maybe not. Who knows. This journal is so incredibly long because its the first of its kind, I haven't written anything on here for so long, and to be honest I would rather be sleeping right now anyway. I should go try to read some poems, I could walk home from here anyway, and I sort of feel like I am a bother here. Oh well. Time to go!
Aside from that I really ought to be doing work right now. But I can't, I left my poetry book at home and I am at the medical library for reasons that I can't begin to explain. I just found out I have a paper due on the 28th, 29th, 1st, and 3rd and a test on the 8th. I'm pretty excited to say the least. I really ought to hang out more in the library, I might get any work done at all. The new schedule of classes came out this week and the english classes offered are quite exciting, its rather odd to be excited about english classes, especially with some of the english class experiences I have had recently. Damn stupid english 301 professor.
So I don't really wanna say much about the car thing, cept my back still hurts and I'm tired all the time, and most likely I really should go to the doctor about my ribs hurting but I'm deciding to suck it up, maybe I'll just go in like a month for everything that is wrong and they can just schedule me with a whole bunch of appointments for random and specific things. I'm not too keen (how do you spell that word....) on this library to say the least. Our library is much cooler theres a starbucks and everything. Not that starbucks makes a plce cool, UVA is a good example of that, you can't put a tarbucks in a plan 9 you just cant. its a bad god damn Idea! Anyhoo. So lots of things hurt and for once I really didn't enjoy the valium they gave me. It just made me sleepy, I mean, not that i'm not used to that its just that I thought maybe it would make some of the pain go away and it really didn't at all. Whats up with that? Why would you give someone a sleep aid for a muscle pain. Muscle relaxers my ass, they are all sleeping pills, and I don't need any help sleeping recently, which is damned weird. Everything is upside down. But I have some faith in the fact that its all going to come back right soon. Which I assume is a good thing, someone has to believe that shit right?
I saw an excellent movie and I can't remember if I said anything about it on here yet, although I'm sure everyone I talk to on here has already seen it. That Eternal sunshine movie. Iwish I had seen it with Bill, it would have been much better because he probably would have thought I didn't understand and would have tried to explain it to me the whole time. Kinda cute, that or we would have gotten drunk and spent so much time cracking on the movie that we wouldn't have watched but half of it. Either way, most likely it would have been more fun and less sad. After that movie I just wanted to crawl into a ball and pretend I really did have some sort of significant other regardless of how much it wasn't working out. Speaking of which, I was supposed to see Brad today. I'm realizing how sort of mean that tie in is and also that I don't reallt care. Its weird that brad wants to even see me, its weird to me sometimes that we still talk becuse I thought it would go one oway or the other, and it seems to have gone the other and i"m not sure if thats necesarily a good thing. I'm an all or nothing type of person with some types of people some of the time. Maybe not. Who knows. This journal is so incredibly long because its the first of its kind, I haven't written anything on here for so long, and to be honest I would rather be sleeping right now anyway. I should go try to read some poems, I could walk home from here anyway, and I sort of feel like I am a bother here. Oh well. Time to go!