Done.

[abbie_chan]

I give up. No really I do. I'm sick of arguing, sick of crying, sick of feeling sick and pathetic and depressed. I wash my hands of this whole situation. I'll let my mother do whatever she wants, because she's going to do it anyway. If I end up homeless, with no where to go, and no one to turn to, then just so be it

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[melonhoney]

I've been in your situation so many times before. You know this. Where I feel like being on the street would even be better than home. I've looked into some options for myself locally and continue to keep my ear to the ground to see what opportunities come up just in case I find myself in a really bad situation again soon.

Check to see if there is a local woman's center in your area. I know there is one in my city that helps guide women in need. They offer mentoring, classes for free, interview training, and free internet use for job searching among other things. I know the though of it sucks but if you can hook up with a mentor who can help set you on the right track and even hook you up with some counseling to deal with the abuse you are going through, it could be really good for you.

Another option is to seek out and try to get on a waiting list for a women's homeless shelter that offers job placement and longer term (as in months) free stay. A lot of these places are run by religious organizations and expect you to attend services and such, but that's not much in return for a place to stay. They are not the safest places (as in people can steal your stuff and you have no privacy) but they really try to get you placed in a job and on your feet asafp due to the long line of people trying to get in these programs.

You're living in a toxic environment. I KNOW what it's like. I'm there myself. And I am not saying you shouldn't try to make it work but you really should keep your options open. Know where you CAN go if you need to. Also, look into some therapy to help you deal with your current situation in the mean time. After I began therapy, I started understanding ways I could better cope with the stress of an abusive family life.

I really hope you try to make this situation better for yourself. It's a shame your mother has no idea how to act like one and be there you. Just take care of yourself and hang in there hon. Give me a call or txt me when you can. :)