[*waves white flag*]
Things are so bad right now. Really, really upsetting. It isn't bad enough that I'm having emotional problems with some of my "friends" right now, relating to not feeling wanted by person I come into physical contact with/not belonging anywhere, but on top of that everything is just starting to crumble around me.
I just feel SO lonely, and so left out of everything. At night I just sit up and think about all the bad things, because I just can't STOP thinking about them. On top of that I've been issued with a $164.00 ticket because I had the wrong metro train ticket. I only had the wrong ticket, BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW. And what's even more wrong is that the same officer who gave me the ticket, let a 15 year old boy who didn't even HAVE A TICKET go scott free right in front of me, because he was "young" and it wouldn't be him to deal with it, but his parents would. What kind of equality is that?! And now I have to schedule a court apperance and go before a judge who couldn't give less of a damn about me or how I make it through this, and pled with him/her to reduce the ticket price, or let me do community service for it, or something. Because I can't pay that kind of fine.
I just, I really, need something good to happen. Something big, or even as small as walking around the mall with someone. Because I don't know how much longer I can stand having all bad around me anymore.
I might F-lock this later, but right now it's just too much effort. -__-;
I just feel SO lonely, and so left out of everything. At night I just sit up and think about all the bad things, because I just can't STOP thinking about them. On top of that I've been issued with a $164.00 ticket because I had the wrong metro train ticket. I only had the wrong ticket, BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW. And what's even more wrong is that the same officer who gave me the ticket, let a 15 year old boy who didn't even HAVE A TICKET go scott free right in front of me, because he was "young" and it wouldn't be him to deal with it, but his parents would. What kind of equality is that?! And now I have to schedule a court apperance and go before a judge who couldn't give less of a damn about me or how I make it through this, and pled with him/her to reduce the ticket price, or let me do community service for it, or something. Because I can't pay that kind of fine.
I just, I really, need something good to happen. Something big, or even as small as walking around the mall with someone. Because I don't know how much longer I can stand having all bad around me anymore.
I might F-lock this later, but right now it's just too much effort. -__-;