Hmmm....
WARNING: Depressing entry. Don't read if want cheerful.
So, yeah... I don't know what to say, really. I'm having some problems. I just don't want to go into much detail. I'm angry, scared, sad, embarrassed, humiliated, royally pissed... What a lovely combination. I want to curl up in a ball and sob. But first I feel like I need to scrub everything off. Or maybe I could just scratch off my skin.
God that sounds horrible. But everytime I let myself feel about this, I wind up digging my nails into my skin and trying not to cry and scream at the same time.
It's killing me, and I don't even know how much of it is just inside my own effing head.
Goddess lead me to enlightenment. And I hope I can manage to somehow see beyond the craziness in my mind.
So, yeah... I don't know what to say, really. I'm having some problems. I just don't want to go into much detail. I'm angry, scared, sad, embarrassed, humiliated, royally pissed... What a lovely combination. I want to curl up in a ball and sob. But first I feel like I need to scrub everything off. Or maybe I could just scratch off my skin.
God that sounds horrible. But everytime I let myself feel about this, I wind up digging my nails into my skin and trying not to cry and scream at the same time.
It's killing me, and I don't even know how much of it is just inside my own effing head.
Goddess lead me to enlightenment. And I hope I can manage to somehow see beyond the craziness in my mind.