Mar 11, 2007 16:40
Ever since the first or second week of school senioritis has been more than a little out of control, now I'm trying to reverse it just as it is hitting all those that haven't been suffering from it. What does that mean? A twitch in the left eye. Hooray for me. There are simply not enough hours in the day. My face feels off. And no matter how hard I try I am constantly running into trouble with defining my own self and it's eating away at me. I feel like an asshole. I wish I wasn't but I think I am. I think it comes in phases and I'm sorry to everyone that ever has been/is/ever will be dealing with my jerk of a self when it's in its full glory.
I wrote a scene for Visions and Voices that didn't appear to have a plot, or at least any context for its ambiguous plot. It did. But I was afraid to "go there." It was date rape. When in Ellensburg I continued working on it and planning it. Then I saw a show that dealt with the same subject in a similar situation and now I feel even more awkward going back to it, being affected by what I've seen. I guess we'll see what happens. I'm still going to revisit Hiking Boots for sure, I'd really like to get a solid scene out of that. I need to cut out with the sparse language scenes though. Single words do not equal lines, not if they last the entire scene. I'm still trying to find the happy medium between overwriting and underwriting.
I'd also like to write a romantic comedy.
I started goofing around with one in Ellensburg (Thank goodness for that little memo notebook I bought there!).
I'd like to live a romantic comedy.
By definition those generally end well don't they?
I'd like to do JAW/West.
Should I talk to Michael and Zach about that?
I'd like to kick major booty at my AAS interview.
I've made it this far, why not go all the way?
I'd like to have an awesome time in Ashland and make sure everyone else does too.
Memories to love.
I'd like to resolve my inner turmoil.
I'd like my life to be mine.
I'd like to celebrate.
I'd like to take an afternoon nap.
I think all of these are attainable. I'll start at the end and then fulfill them in no particular order.