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Life is rough right now. I can't honestly say that I have too many things going my way. Academically, this semester was soiled by the mono that completely devoured my entire month of November. My grades are seriously gonna reflect the fact that I was sidelined for so long. I don't feel like I have a firm grasp on ANYTHING right now. And if all that weren't enough, Kristina decides to break up with me today after i dealt with her drunkened stupidity for 2 nights in a row. Now, not only do I feel like shit, but I feel alone.
Everytime I talk to my family on the phone, I well up. Something is seriously wrong. I think its just the fact that i'm overwhelmed by independence right now. Things aren't going my way and i'm facing these trials alone. I have great friends here, but its not the same as my friends at home. I really need winter break in a big way. I need a break from daily responsibilities and I need to be embraced by my best friends and family. And then I want second semester. A clean slate. A chance to do everything right and keep it that way. Currently, I just feel defeated. I left for college with confidence and support, I lost it somewhere along the way.
Everytime I talk to my family on the phone, I well up. Something is seriously wrong. I think its just the fact that i'm overwhelmed by independence right now. Things aren't going my way and i'm facing these trials alone. I have great friends here, but its not the same as my friends at home. I really need winter break in a big way. I need a break from daily responsibilities and I need to be embraced by my best friends and family. And then I want second semester. A clean slate. A chance to do everything right and keep it that way. Currently, I just feel defeated. I left for college with confidence and support, I lost it somewhere along the way.