two can play this game - especially with you. >..< grrrrr
i listen to this not because it just so happens to be on my cd. but i listen to it for comfort. the comfort that it brings to my head, filling every part of me with memories i wish to hold close to me again. anyway...
now that i am partially recovered from my wisdom teeth taking, i can return calls, go outside and play hop-scotch like i used to three days ago. i can eat three course meals...well, not at this time , but eventually i hope to. try being lactose n tolerant and only be able to eat ice cream. nobody forced me, and yes there was plenty of soup, but who can say no to ice cream. NOT ME.
went to high park with the kennedy's to watch "Much Ado About Nothing", good ol' Shakespeare. quite the pleasant evening, until...
*sigh*i long for a perfect movie moment. or.,the perfect beach chair in mexico with the perfect songs. i need an escape. not an illusion of an escape. but a real one. it's funny how some people feel so alone in this world yet have the most dearest things closest to them. i miss my godfather.
...i can't believe you would actually use that excuse. i mean sure, i guess you would, i mean it is true. but half the time i was fucking passed out on my couch or on the bed, to drugged up to even open the door myself, or turn around to say hi. but fine, i'll deal, that's how you need it to be, then we'll do just that.
moving on, tomorrow i will have some quality summer time memories with my "lass"(?). sorry darling, it's all sober for me, the last thing i want is some gross infection in my mouth. *sigh* once more. for the lost me. there is a huge hole in my map , and funny enough, the only tape i have to fix it is Duct tape...definitely need some new directions.
now that i am partially recovered from my wisdom teeth taking, i can return calls, go outside and play hop-scotch like i used to three days ago. i can eat three course meals...well, not at this time , but eventually i hope to. try being lactose n tolerant and only be able to eat ice cream. nobody forced me, and yes there was plenty of soup, but who can say no to ice cream. NOT ME.
went to high park with the kennedy's to watch "Much Ado About Nothing", good ol' Shakespeare. quite the pleasant evening, until...
*sigh*i long for a perfect movie moment. or.,the perfect beach chair in mexico with the perfect songs. i need an escape. not an illusion of an escape. but a real one. it's funny how some people feel so alone in this world yet have the most dearest things closest to them. i miss my godfather.
...i can't believe you would actually use that excuse. i mean sure, i guess you would, i mean it is true. but half the time i was fucking passed out on my couch or on the bed, to drugged up to even open the door myself, or turn around to say hi. but fine, i'll deal, that's how you need it to be, then we'll do just that.
moving on, tomorrow i will have some quality summer time memories with my "lass"(?). sorry darling, it's all sober for me, the last thing i want is some gross infection in my mouth. *sigh* once more. for the lost me. there is a huge hole in my map , and funny enough, the only tape i have to fix it is Duct tape...definitely need some new directions.