limbo
I think I'm going to be okay. Between APTT and DXP I have hit the jackpot with friends and people who care about me. So yesterday, after I realized everyone was gone, I called Virginia. She talked to me and took me off campus, and we went to dinner and I have just never felt so cared about by someone whom I haven't known for very long. It was amazing of her. Steph came along too, which just added to the awesomeness.
Then later that night, we had our DXP Theta line retreat. We went out, which wasn't as fun as I had hoped it would be, but we talked and that was amazing. I fell asleep first. I only had 4 hours of sleep and all I had eaten was half a bagel. So I was going on emotional energy, which thankfully ran out.
I woke up nauseous this morning. I ate something and then felt nauseous. Then at dinner, I ate some more and felt nauseous again. I don't think I should eat anymore. I feel kind of numb. I'm not sure if I'm okay or if I'm just pushing my emotions away. And that scares me...I'd rather deal with it now than think that I'm okay and find out later that I'm not. I don't know.
I don't really know what to think or do, so I'm basically busying myself with work and friends and fun. I think I'm going to be okay.
Edit: I think I lied before. I'm not so sure now. Oh god, I'm not sure at all.
Then later that night, we had our DXP Theta line retreat. We went out, which wasn't as fun as I had hoped it would be, but we talked and that was amazing. I fell asleep first. I only had 4 hours of sleep and all I had eaten was half a bagel. So I was going on emotional energy, which thankfully ran out.
I woke up nauseous this morning. I ate something and then felt nauseous. Then at dinner, I ate some more and felt nauseous again. I don't think I should eat anymore. I feel kind of numb. I'm not sure if I'm okay or if I'm just pushing my emotions away. And that scares me...I'd rather deal with it now than think that I'm okay and find out later that I'm not. I don't know.
I don't really know what to think or do, so I'm basically busying myself with work and friends and fun. I think I'm going to be okay.
Edit: I think I lied before. I'm not so sure now. Oh god, I'm not sure at all.