List time
Things have been weird.
+ New friend Dave
+ Sorority stuff is fun
- Wayyy too much on my mind lately
- Problems, problems, problems, more problems
+ He's so easy to talk to
- I'm hard to understand
- I feel like I'm slipping
- The concert I've been looking forward to may be difficult to get to/from
+ Really damn cute.
+ I got Mardi Gras beads without flashing anyone
- I'm not sure what I'm doing.
- I definitely know I have no idea as to what I'm doing
- I don't know what I want
- I don't know what I want
- I don't know who I want
- I just can't push myself anymore
- I have a weakness for smiles
I was so happy this morning. I don't know why. Things seemed so manageable. And now, I feel like I'm unraveling. I feel like there's a bubble around me, like I'm disconnected from the world. I don't know what's happening. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I'll do if I end up in that situation. I don't trust my own judgement. I don't know if I can rely on myself. I don't want to end up with regrets. But I know that if I don't try this now, I'm never going to let myself forget it. But it's just hurting him. And if things procede, they're going to hurt him too. And I don't like the idea of gambling. I hate knowing that whatever move I make, I'm going to end up hurting someone. It's just that...the distance is getting to me. I'm getting stressed out. All of this shit is just stressing me out so much and I just want to forget it all and just focus on work because I am being pulled in so many different directions. And I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I can't talk to anyone. I need sleep.
+ New friend Dave
+ Sorority stuff is fun
- Wayyy too much on my mind lately
- Problems, problems, problems, more problems
+ He's so easy to talk to
- I'm hard to understand
- I feel like I'm slipping
- The concert I've been looking forward to may be difficult to get to/from
+ Really damn cute.
+ I got Mardi Gras beads without flashing anyone
- I'm not sure what I'm doing.
- I definitely know I have no idea as to what I'm doing
- I don't know what I want
- I don't know what I want
- I don't know who I want
- I just can't push myself anymore
- I have a weakness for smiles
I was so happy this morning. I don't know why. Things seemed so manageable. And now, I feel like I'm unraveling. I feel like there's a bubble around me, like I'm disconnected from the world. I don't know what's happening. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I'll do if I end up in that situation. I don't trust my own judgement. I don't know if I can rely on myself. I don't want to end up with regrets. But I know that if I don't try this now, I'm never going to let myself forget it. But it's just hurting him. And if things procede, they're going to hurt him too. And I don't like the idea of gambling. I hate knowing that whatever move I make, I'm going to end up hurting someone. It's just that...the distance is getting to me. I'm getting stressed out. All of this shit is just stressing me out so much and I just want to forget it all and just focus on work because I am being pulled in so many different directions. And I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I can't talk to anyone. I need sleep.