you better let somebody love you

Jan 17, 2007 21:38

So first semester is over. I haven't written in a while. I got my grades back. My gpa was 0.5 lower than my lowest ever. 3.36 That's an amazingly low number. I have to say, I'm pretty disappointed in myself. I wasn't expecting a 4.0, but I was hoping I'd at least make Dean's list. I'm just going to have to work really hard next semester. That scares me, because I thought I worked myself as hard as I possibly could this semester. Med school seems to be getting farther and farther away. I had the vaguest notion to switch majors to Writing Seminars. I figured I could be a writer/editor and part-time doctor. lol fantasies.

So Intersession has been quite boring. I took 2 classes--3 days a week. I don't think I learned much about Mothers and Daughters in Ancient Greece. I read some really good memoirs, though. And I have certainly watched more than enough TV to last me for the rest of my life. But that's it. No one was here, which means there's nothing to do. And there was no bus.

I'm worried about med school. I've got 2.5 years to raise my gpa at least 0.4, involve myself in a lot of activities, and get ready for the MCATs. I suddenly feel very old. I don't know how I did it in high school. Maybe it was because we were all kind of in the same boat. Now, everyone's on their own. And I don't write anymore. I haven't had time to think about my life. I'm not quite sure what to do.

I think I've become very introverted. I was always kind of a loner, but I think it's even more pronounced now. Like Nolan said, I can make a choice about what I want to get from my college experience. And I feel obligated to put academics before everything else. Afterall, that's why I'm paying so much money to go here, right? I just wish there was more time in the day.

Oh well, this will be a nice, carefree weekend. I hope my headache goes away.

thoughts

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