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sl;fdsfksda, thats how i feel.
i dont know why, but i do.
and i apologize to whoever reads my entries because i only write in this when im being emo.
though i doubt anyone still reads this.
but like, ok, i know hes got a girlfriend, but im still fucking attracted to him, i always have been and its really annoying because i know nothing will ever happen, especially with a girlfriend.
but of course, he always has to be all over me, [because thats the way we are]and make me wonder if he notices this attraction. sometimes i wonder if he feels something like i do. but i doubt it, whod want me?
our goal, well their goal was for the three of us to find boyfriends. and two days later, there is a guy for each of them, and im still alone. the only guy who ever talks to me or acts that way with me lives a bajillion miles away, and only calls for one fucking reason. well, then ofcourse theres the taken one, and the one who likes to mess around with me when im drunk, thinking i wont remember what hes said to me the night before.
fuck. i dont know what to do. i feel like a horrible person. i hope he doesnt get in trouble.
speaking of trouble, they suspected something, but i dont think they realized that it actually happened, and well i feel like shit when they mentioned their suspiscions. i hope he doesn say anything or that they dont figure anything out. that would be bad.
whatever. ok. rant done.
i hope he calls.
i dont know why, but i do.
and i apologize to whoever reads my entries because i only write in this when im being emo.
though i doubt anyone still reads this.
but like, ok, i know hes got a girlfriend, but im still fucking attracted to him, i always have been and its really annoying because i know nothing will ever happen, especially with a girlfriend.
but of course, he always has to be all over me, [because thats the way we are]and make me wonder if he notices this attraction. sometimes i wonder if he feels something like i do. but i doubt it, whod want me?
our goal, well their goal was for the three of us to find boyfriends. and two days later, there is a guy for each of them, and im still alone. the only guy who ever talks to me or acts that way with me lives a bajillion miles away, and only calls for one fucking reason. well, then ofcourse theres the taken one, and the one who likes to mess around with me when im drunk, thinking i wont remember what hes said to me the night before.
fuck. i dont know what to do. i feel like a horrible person. i hope he doesnt get in trouble.
speaking of trouble, they suspected something, but i dont think they realized that it actually happened, and well i feel like shit when they mentioned their suspiscions. i hope he doesn say anything or that they dont figure anything out. that would be bad.
whatever. ok. rant done.
i hope he calls.