Gratitude.
Today was just a crappy day. At one point, Heidi was over and we played scrabble and that was a good time. But, for most of the day, I've been stuck in blah-land. Ugh.
I think the main reason today felt so icky was that I was up with Henry at 4am. We usually sleep until at least noon (cause we're a sort of nocturnal family). But, last night we crashed early because all of us were in food-comas. Ehh.
So, being tired just made everything kinda off. I went to work with Brad, and forgot to pack Henry formula!! Thankfully, he survived on apple juice. Then, just when I thought I was gonna get to go home, I had to take a delivery. I hate deliveries! But, I ended up taking two. The first lady was a b*tch and was kinda mean and didn't give me a tip.
Then, I couldn't find the next house! I drove up and down the street and it seemed as though the number did not exist! A couple of times I pulled into driveways to check for clues... but I got nothing. Finally, I found some sort of newly built home that I was sure was the one. I pulled in, and a guy came out on the porch and started screaming. He was like "Get out! Keep out!" He must have been on crack. Litterally. I tried backing out as fast as I could but I was sort of stuck in snow and also there was traffic coming. Ahhhh. He kept yelling and I had just had enough!
I headed back to Dominos and found that things had started to slow down for Brad. We straightened things out with the mystery house and then Brad just held me while I cried. It had been a long day. But, man... I am so thankful for that man. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. In his arms, I feel so loved. I am so in love with him. It makes me so giddy to think about marrying him. I can't believe I get to spend the rest of my life with such an amazing guy.
After I recovered, and helped Brad out a bit, I went to get Henry. Since my Mom was sick, Heidi had him. Heidi is so great. She is always volunteering to help out with Henry and I know that she truly enjoys being with him. Every child that gets to be a part of her life is so lucky. Because, Heidi has a gift for touching their lives. She has a way with them... and we are so blessed to have her involved with Henry.
I drove home, tired as hell. But I'm alive. I'm alive and loving the fact that I am aching to the bone. Because, I know that I am here. This is now. I have a baby. I'm a mom. I can't believe I'm fucking 23 years old. How did all this happen?
It's seems so crazy that my life has changed so much in such a short time. But, I wouldn't have it any other way. I am so grateful for this path God has put me on. And, at the end of a really bad day- I have a really great man to hold me while I cry. ♥
I think the main reason today felt so icky was that I was up with Henry at 4am. We usually sleep until at least noon (cause we're a sort of nocturnal family). But, last night we crashed early because all of us were in food-comas. Ehh.
So, being tired just made everything kinda off. I went to work with Brad, and forgot to pack Henry formula!! Thankfully, he survived on apple juice. Then, just when I thought I was gonna get to go home, I had to take a delivery. I hate deliveries! But, I ended up taking two. The first lady was a b*tch and was kinda mean and didn't give me a tip.
Then, I couldn't find the next house! I drove up and down the street and it seemed as though the number did not exist! A couple of times I pulled into driveways to check for clues... but I got nothing. Finally, I found some sort of newly built home that I was sure was the one. I pulled in, and a guy came out on the porch and started screaming. He was like "Get out! Keep out!" He must have been on crack. Litterally. I tried backing out as fast as I could but I was sort of stuck in snow and also there was traffic coming. Ahhhh. He kept yelling and I had just had enough!
I headed back to Dominos and found that things had started to slow down for Brad. We straightened things out with the mystery house and then Brad just held me while I cried. It had been a long day. But, man... I am so thankful for that man. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. In his arms, I feel so loved. I am so in love with him. It makes me so giddy to think about marrying him. I can't believe I get to spend the rest of my life with such an amazing guy.
After I recovered, and helped Brad out a bit, I went to get Henry. Since my Mom was sick, Heidi had him. Heidi is so great. She is always volunteering to help out with Henry and I know that she truly enjoys being with him. Every child that gets to be a part of her life is so lucky. Because, Heidi has a gift for touching their lives. She has a way with them... and we are so blessed to have her involved with Henry.
I drove home, tired as hell. But I'm alive. I'm alive and loving the fact that I am aching to the bone. Because, I know that I am here. This is now. I have a baby. I'm a mom. I can't believe I'm fucking 23 years old. How did all this happen?
It's seems so crazy that my life has changed so much in such a short time. But, I wouldn't have it any other way. I am so grateful for this path God has put me on. And, at the end of a really bad day- I have a really great man to hold me while I cry. ♥