42nd entry
i honestly dont know what i did,
who knows if it was the right thing or not.
at this point, i bet were all confused as fuck.
i read what you write and i take everything you say into consideration.
i always give you the benefit of the doubt.
and now im wondering if i was right to do so.
i care so much, and i try to understand.
i want to understand.
i didnt want to make things harder.
i wanted to make things better.
or i thought they would be better but i guess i might be wrong. honestly, who knows anymore.
i read august 10th, that makes me think to myself, if its even worth it.
you know that i want you to be happy, because i wish that for everyone.
your not just anyone.
i dont know how many times i have to say i care. because i do.
im sorry.
i feel like i put so much out there, so much time and energy.
i dont mind doing it at all.
i guess im just scared, thats all.
once again, im sorry.
im giving you time to think things through.
and i want to hear the TRUTH from you because thats the best thing you can give me at this point.
please come to me when your ready.
who knows if it was the right thing or not.
at this point, i bet were all confused as fuck.
i read what you write and i take everything you say into consideration.
i always give you the benefit of the doubt.
and now im wondering if i was right to do so.
i care so much, and i try to understand.
i want to understand.
i didnt want to make things harder.
i wanted to make things better.
or i thought they would be better but i guess i might be wrong. honestly, who knows anymore.
i read august 10th, that makes me think to myself, if its even worth it.
you know that i want you to be happy, because i wish that for everyone.
your not just anyone.
i dont know how many times i have to say i care. because i do.
im sorry.
i feel like i put so much out there, so much time and energy.
i dont mind doing it at all.
i guess im just scared, thats all.
once again, im sorry.
im giving you time to think things through.
and i want to hear the TRUTH from you because thats the best thing you can give me at this point.
please come to me when your ready.