ive been wantin to do this for awhile now...
this entry has been on my mind for awhile now. I haven't writtin it because I never really knew what to put. basically I wanted to speak to my heart. (he knows who he is) I wanted to tell him that I could have never seen myself being so in love with him like I am now. I mean, I knew I had feelings for him, but not strong enuff to care so much and want to be everythin he wants, needs and deserves. I know I do my dumb shit. (oh goodness) and I flip out on him but whenever he scolds me for it I always feel so bad vs when I wuldnt give a fck about how the guy felt. I miss him more and more everyday that goes by and I hope I always keep his heart. even the thought of him leavin me hurts me. I know sometimes I go to sleep and dream bad things about us and wake up and cry a bit. and as in love with him as I am, I wanna make sure I don't over love him or smother him. (because then it becomes scary). just wanna make sure he knows I always do and will regardless what other situation I may be in.