wake me up when september ends.....
well ironically enough my last post was a quiz about jeremy and my love together. and this post is about how we broke up. he couldn't take the distance. here i am giving my friend jessika advice about stregth and how long distance relationship can be worth it, and look what happens to me...
he talked about regretting it and crying about it all the next day. but he still didn't take it back. he lead me on at that point and i've told him. he crushed me by this point. i can't believe someone i loved turned their back on me that fast....
the one time i put full trust in another, they hurt me. like always...
he wanted to be friends but i didn't want to put myself through that pain. of havign him there but knowing he wasn't mine. also i don't want to be there when he finds someone new. but i did say if he needed someone to talk to (since i am/was his biggest support system). and he made a promise to me that he'd call when he'd figure things out. he has so much on his mind and has to find what he holds most important, obviously that wasn't me...
i havn't cried too much. only when i dwell on it. or think about what we once had. what i thought was perfect...
but i am going to be alright in the end....i always am...
"here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends"
--Green Day
love and pain, lm
he talked about regretting it and crying about it all the next day. but he still didn't take it back. he lead me on at that point and i've told him. he crushed me by this point. i can't believe someone i loved turned their back on me that fast....
the one time i put full trust in another, they hurt me. like always...
he wanted to be friends but i didn't want to put myself through that pain. of havign him there but knowing he wasn't mine. also i don't want to be there when he finds someone new. but i did say if he needed someone to talk to (since i am/was his biggest support system). and he made a promise to me that he'd call when he'd figure things out. he has so much on his mind and has to find what he holds most important, obviously that wasn't me...
i havn't cried too much. only when i dwell on it. or think about what we once had. what i thought was perfect...
but i am going to be alright in the end....i always am...
"here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends"
--Green Day
love and pain, lm