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Our class visited in Next Step yesterday.
At Messukeskus.
We got some free teenmagazines. Super.
Aba + Frida.
I'm moving.
It was nice to get out of Forssa, but the whole happening was quite boring. But however I'm very proud that some rescue academy's man spotted me when I walked by. Me. And he stepped to me asking if I were interested of rescuing. Then he told me about rescuers and whatever they teach in the academy. Hah. He saw my potential. He saw I'm a rescuer.
Only that I'm not.
Or if I am, I'm a fucking bad one. After we came back from Helsinki I went straight to Lasse's home. I was very sleepy, so at some point I had to sleep for a while. Lasse went to drink with Miikka and I got up soon after that. At night when I was asleep he came back and was pissed and frustrated and we had some kinda fight again. I don't know if I can say 'fight', when I'm not replying to it. I'm not a rescuer at all. I'm just tired. Somehow what ever I decide to do, I hurt someone. I hope in six months these things will be better.
I made the intelligence test again and got 150 points out of 174 which is the maximum. 100 is the average. Am I smart now? If so, it doesn't effect to my relationship, but at least I can showoff to my net friend. Yeah. [ KUKKUU VEUHKA! ^__^ ]
Today I'll edit some more. I have screwed my work, but it doesn't worry me now. Good. Tomorrow, after meeting with Teija, I'll go to Helsinki. Good. It feels bad to go away and leave Lasse here with his problems, but I still feel relieved about getting off for couple of days. And my presence doesn't change anything anyway. It's weird... the need to be in a place where hurts most.
At Messukeskus.
We got some free teenmagazines. Super.
Aba + Frida.
I'm moving.
It was nice to get out of Forssa, but the whole happening was quite boring. But however I'm very proud that some rescue academy's man spotted me when I walked by. Me. And he stepped to me asking if I were interested of rescuing. Then he told me about rescuers and whatever they teach in the academy. Hah. He saw my potential. He saw I'm a rescuer.
Only that I'm not.
Or if I am, I'm a fucking bad one. After we came back from Helsinki I went straight to Lasse's home. I was very sleepy, so at some point I had to sleep for a while. Lasse went to drink with Miikka and I got up soon after that. At night when I was asleep he came back and was pissed and frustrated and we had some kinda fight again. I don't know if I can say 'fight', when I'm not replying to it. I'm not a rescuer at all. I'm just tired. Somehow what ever I decide to do, I hurt someone. I hope in six months these things will be better.
I made the intelligence test again and got 150 points out of 174 which is the maximum. 100 is the average. Am I smart now? If so, it doesn't effect to my relationship, but at least I can showoff to my net friend. Yeah. [ KUKKUU VEUHKA! ^__^ ]
Today I'll edit some more. I have screwed my work, but it doesn't worry me now. Good. Tomorrow, after meeting with Teija, I'll go to Helsinki. Good. It feels bad to go away and leave Lasse here with his problems, but I still feel relieved about getting off for couple of days. And my presence doesn't change anything anyway. It's weird... the need to be in a place where hurts most.