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Christmas day has been manic. the kids were up at 3:10 this morning!! EEK!!
I think they enjoyed their day, although I was a little disgruntled that they didn't say thank you for any of their toys or presents, and 10 minutes after opening everything, they were asking to have the tv on and play on the computer, so i was a little put out. my Mum pulled them up when she got here, and the kids were full of thank you's, but it'd have been nice if they said it off their own back, never mind, they are just kids :o)
I have had a lot of thoughtful time over the last few days. I have been visiting alot of sites about Buddhism. It seems to answer lots of questions I ask about myself. So I have joined a few groups, and I plan to look into it seriously. It will mean alot of changes, but as far as I can see, it will be all for the better :o)
I have looked for so long (since I was a teenager) for something I could believe in.....I went throught the whole christian thing, I was confirmed and everything, but it didn't feel right......believing in something I couldn't see, or feel. I was taught to believe in a 'God' and he would make it alright, well, he didn't and I felt let down.
I openly lost any christian faith I may have had, when my Dad died. And since then I have been looking for something that applied to me.
Buddhism is about self enlightenment, about improving yourself in order to improve the life around you. About being mellow and following rules that give you well-being. I like that feeling, being in control of your own destiny, not relying on anyone else (either spiritual or real) to pull you out of something.
Yes, things may have to change, but I am willing to do that to make myself feel whole again, which I seriously don't right now.
Christmas has made me think lots about all of this, and I discussed it with my mum this afternoon, and she agreed that I have alot of buddhist beliefs anyway. I meditate, I practice crystal healing, and I believe in the practices of feng shui, and maximising the chi in my life.
I think new year may bring alot of changes this time around :o)
I think they enjoyed their day, although I was a little disgruntled that they didn't say thank you for any of their toys or presents, and 10 minutes after opening everything, they were asking to have the tv on and play on the computer, so i was a little put out. my Mum pulled them up when she got here, and the kids were full of thank you's, but it'd have been nice if they said it off their own back, never mind, they are just kids :o)
I have had a lot of thoughtful time over the last few days. I have been visiting alot of sites about Buddhism. It seems to answer lots of questions I ask about myself. So I have joined a few groups, and I plan to look into it seriously. It will mean alot of changes, but as far as I can see, it will be all for the better :o)
I have looked for so long (since I was a teenager) for something I could believe in.....I went throught the whole christian thing, I was confirmed and everything, but it didn't feel right......believing in something I couldn't see, or feel. I was taught to believe in a 'God' and he would make it alright, well, he didn't and I felt let down.
I openly lost any christian faith I may have had, when my Dad died. And since then I have been looking for something that applied to me.
Buddhism is about self enlightenment, about improving yourself in order to improve the life around you. About being mellow and following rules that give you well-being. I like that feeling, being in control of your own destiny, not relying on anyone else (either spiritual or real) to pull you out of something.
Yes, things may have to change, but I am willing to do that to make myself feel whole again, which I seriously don't right now.
Christmas has made me think lots about all of this, and I discussed it with my mum this afternoon, and she agreed that I have alot of buddhist beliefs anyway. I meditate, I practice crystal healing, and I believe in the practices of feng shui, and maximising the chi in my life.
I think new year may bring alot of changes this time around :o)