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I feel for some reason that I've turned a corner in my life today. I feel inexplicably satisfied and pleasant and confident. I feel like what will come will come, though not in a dour fatalistic sort of way but rather in a comfortable way. It's like a new door has been opened to me and I've realized my life doesn't have to always be so heavy and melodramatic and my art doesn't have to be either. I just find myself no longer anxious about the stressful weeks ahead, but gladly anticipating the opportunities I have to do something that's worth a damn. I feel as though most of last year I was a specter of myself, a lazier, gloomier version of Kelly, but that I've found a part of myself again that can laugh and smile and work hard and dream and plan and chase after goals again.
I feel good.
I feel good.