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Ugh, I feel bad now.
My Dad: So do you want to go to church today or tomorrow?
Me: Ugh, do I have to go?
My Dad: I would like you to...
Me: I just don't think I should have to go to church if I don't even believe in anything.
My Dad: Well you don't really have to believe in something to go to church that isn't the point...
Me: Yeah you do, otherwise its a waste of time. It's not like I'm abnormal or something, I know a lot of kids that don't really believe in anything either, it's hard to believe in anything because a lot of stuff is going wrong.
My dad is like, really in to church and stuff so hopefully I didn't make him feel bad..
Wow, if there really is a God, I'm going to hell.
I just find it really hard to believe in anything. Maybe I'm just going through a phase.. my brother Tyler was the same way when he was my age, and I think Dom was too... but we weren't raised to go to church in Illinois or when we moved here or anything. Tyler was totally atheist when he was younger. (I think he is agnostic now?) I'm not atheist or anything... more agnostic than anything... but I don't know.
I feel really guilty, yet I HATE going to church because its boring as hell, and I still feel like I'm making a huge mistake by turning down religion, because what if I was just to like, die one day, and then find out that there really was a God?
Mostly though, I think that religion was just created by people because they were afraid of death, and needed something too look forward to after death. That makes perfect sense... and how possible is it for like 300 something people to talk to God in order to write the Bible?
Hmm...
My Dad: So do you want to go to church today or tomorrow?
Me: Ugh, do I have to go?
My Dad: I would like you to...
Me: I just don't think I should have to go to church if I don't even believe in anything.
My Dad: Well you don't really have to believe in something to go to church that isn't the point...
Me: Yeah you do, otherwise its a waste of time. It's not like I'm abnormal or something, I know a lot of kids that don't really believe in anything either, it's hard to believe in anything because a lot of stuff is going wrong.
My dad is like, really in to church and stuff so hopefully I didn't make him feel bad..
Wow, if there really is a God, I'm going to hell.
I just find it really hard to believe in anything. Maybe I'm just going through a phase.. my brother Tyler was the same way when he was my age, and I think Dom was too... but we weren't raised to go to church in Illinois or when we moved here or anything. Tyler was totally atheist when he was younger. (I think he is agnostic now?) I'm not atheist or anything... more agnostic than anything... but I don't know.
I feel really guilty, yet I HATE going to church because its boring as hell, and I still feel like I'm making a huge mistake by turning down religion, because what if I was just to like, die one day, and then find out that there really was a God?
Mostly though, I think that religion was just created by people because they were afraid of death, and needed something too look forward to after death. That makes perfect sense... and how possible is it for like 300 something people to talk to God in order to write the Bible?
Hmm...