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I'm done... I'm sick of liking boys and then later just having to admit to myself I'm not good enough. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not cool enough... for any guy. It's so pointless.
And the only time a guy DOES like me back, he doesn't say anything because he knows his FRIENDS WILL MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR LIKING ME, AND BECAUSE HE KNOWS HES BETTER THAN ME.
So why am I making an idiot of myself by liking this other kid, because I have no chance in hell with him.
And no one can understand.
I'm so fucking hateful right now, other people.. and myself. Life is truly disgusting. But only for some of us. I guess "God" just decided he was going to hate me and punish me all the time. Oh well.
And the only time a guy DOES like me back, he doesn't say anything because he knows his FRIENDS WILL MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR LIKING ME, AND BECAUSE HE KNOWS HES BETTER THAN ME.
So why am I making an idiot of myself by liking this other kid, because I have no chance in hell with him.
And no one can understand.
I'm so fucking hateful right now, other people.. and myself. Life is truly disgusting. But only for some of us. I guess "God" just decided he was going to hate me and punish me all the time. Oh well.