It's been a REALLY long time
So, umm, yeah... hi.
I've been struggling for a long time and I don't think I wanted to admit it to myself. Nothing specific has happened, but it's definitely past time to regroup and try to get back on track.
My life is technically pretty awesome. My relationship with Jake is pretty great. Of course, we have some issues, but most of them are connected to my depression. Everything with Xander is pretty amazing. He is a great kid, I'm super lucky with how easy he has been so far. Work is good, I turn down more than I should because of the depression, but I love my job and earn pretty darn good money to do something I enjoy, very few people have that and I'm super grateful for it.
I thought that maybe journaling again would be good for me. I did finally set up an appointment with my psychiatrist. I've had insurance since February, and finally got it done in October. This is pretty much how my life has been for the last few years.
I'm super overweight right now. I just got myself back down to 200 pounds. I'm hoping to break the threshold this month. It would be nice if I could just get down to 195 and stay there for a bit. None of my clothes really fit me. I'm using a pregnancy belly band to keep my pants up since I can't button them.
I've been playing D&D almost weekly and that has been nice. It's a nice group of people, we all have kids and very little playing gets done (the only negative of all the kids). It's been nice to build relationships with that.
Jake got me to sign up for a belly dance class. So at a minimum I'm doing that every Monday.
I can't think of what else to write at the moment. I know most of this is vague complaining. We'll see if I even get back to writing again on a regular basis.
I've been struggling for a long time and I don't think I wanted to admit it to myself. Nothing specific has happened, but it's definitely past time to regroup and try to get back on track.
My life is technically pretty awesome. My relationship with Jake is pretty great. Of course, we have some issues, but most of them are connected to my depression. Everything with Xander is pretty amazing. He is a great kid, I'm super lucky with how easy he has been so far. Work is good, I turn down more than I should because of the depression, but I love my job and earn pretty darn good money to do something I enjoy, very few people have that and I'm super grateful for it.
I thought that maybe journaling again would be good for me. I did finally set up an appointment with my psychiatrist. I've had insurance since February, and finally got it done in October. This is pretty much how my life has been for the last few years.
I'm super overweight right now. I just got myself back down to 200 pounds. I'm hoping to break the threshold this month. It would be nice if I could just get down to 195 and stay there for a bit. None of my clothes really fit me. I'm using a pregnancy belly band to keep my pants up since I can't button them.
I've been playing D&D almost weekly and that has been nice. It's a nice group of people, we all have kids and very little playing gets done (the only negative of all the kids). It's been nice to build relationships with that.
Jake got me to sign up for a belly dance class. So at a minimum I'm doing that every Monday.
I can't think of what else to write at the moment. I know most of this is vague complaining. We'll see if I even get back to writing again on a regular basis.