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So apparently my 'no tv' rule still doesn't get me to post more often. Well, I'm posting now so I guess it actually does.
I'm almost done with the 3 weeks and it's definitely easier to not watch TV now. I've watched 3 half hour shows. The only issue is now I've replaced it with reading. Don't get me wrong...I love reading, always have. But it sucks me in even worse than TV. At least with TV a show will end and I will look at the time and maybe get into bed. Now, I just keep clicking that Kindle button. I've always used reading as an escape so now I'm doing it again.
My depression is starting to kick my ass. I need to make an appointment for getting back on my meds and I still haven't done it. It's been on my ToDo list since I weaned off the pump. Why don't I just call? I have no freaking clue. It just keeps on...just not getting done. Just like all the other crap in my life. all the important stuff like paying bills (I did get caught up with that and am on time for all bills so far this month, yay!), cleaning house, calling friends, doing chores.
I'm working on my resume to sign up with other Interpreting Agencies so I can hopefully get enough work in Tucson when we move. I started it in February when we made the final decision that we were absolutely moving. I've got my address written so far. I'm stupidly stuck with how to put down Freelance work. It's ridiculous, a simple search on google...but I don't fucking do it.
I'm wanting to get in touch again with my ex-in-laws and see if that is a relationship I can rekindle. I haven't written them in over a year now. I wanted to try and fix my friendship with Debby, but that hasn't been happening either (to be fair to myself that is partially on her also, but I haven't done anything with that for maybe 5 or 6 months now).
I want to spend time with Jacob and Xander and be present and enjoy it. I'm doing slightly better with Xander. I play with him more actively more often. We watch a lot less TV now. But, I'm still avoiding time with Jake and I don't even know why. When we do spend some time actively together (not both of us on our separate screens), I love it. It's stupid that I don't force that more. He's getting pretty tired of being the one to try and initiate that and I think now his feelings are getting hurt even though he understands the depression stuff. It's still really hard on friends and family of someone with depression.
Wow, so a lot of heavy crap today. Maybe I just needed to get it off my chest a bit.
I'm almost done with the 3 weeks and it's definitely easier to not watch TV now. I've watched 3 half hour shows. The only issue is now I've replaced it with reading. Don't get me wrong...I love reading, always have. But it sucks me in even worse than TV. At least with TV a show will end and I will look at the time and maybe get into bed. Now, I just keep clicking that Kindle button. I've always used reading as an escape so now I'm doing it again.
My depression is starting to kick my ass. I need to make an appointment for getting back on my meds and I still haven't done it. It's been on my ToDo list since I weaned off the pump. Why don't I just call? I have no freaking clue. It just keeps on...just not getting done. Just like all the other crap in my life. all the important stuff like paying bills (I did get caught up with that and am on time for all bills so far this month, yay!), cleaning house, calling friends, doing chores.
I'm working on my resume to sign up with other Interpreting Agencies so I can hopefully get enough work in Tucson when we move. I started it in February when we made the final decision that we were absolutely moving. I've got my address written so far. I'm stupidly stuck with how to put down Freelance work. It's ridiculous, a simple search on google...but I don't fucking do it.
I'm wanting to get in touch again with my ex-in-laws and see if that is a relationship I can rekindle. I haven't written them in over a year now. I wanted to try and fix my friendship with Debby, but that hasn't been happening either (to be fair to myself that is partially on her also, but I haven't done anything with that for maybe 5 or 6 months now).
I want to spend time with Jacob and Xander and be present and enjoy it. I'm doing slightly better with Xander. I play with him more actively more often. We watch a lot less TV now. But, I'm still avoiding time with Jake and I don't even know why. When we do spend some time actively together (not both of us on our separate screens), I love it. It's stupid that I don't force that more. He's getting pretty tired of being the one to try and initiate that and I think now his feelings are getting hurt even though he understands the depression stuff. It's still really hard on friends and family of someone with depression.
Wow, so a lot of heavy crap today. Maybe I just needed to get it off my chest a bit.