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I think I just embarassed myself crying in a bus stop, with mascara running down my whole face. Who knew this day was going to turn like this?
I was going to have my bestfriend over today for reviewing and it was going well until she called me an hour and a half later saying that she's going to stick with her boyfriend. In other words, she was apologizing for ditching me.
Hmm. I was okay with that. I shrugged it off. I was used to her always choosing her boyfriend over me. It was irritating, yes, because it ruined a lot of our plans but I always kept saying to myself that it's her life and I should be happy for her. I honestly tried to.
So I called my boyfriend since we had a math exam together tomorrow and I asked him if it would be okay if we studied together. He said yes, yada yada. I got ready and I waited for the bus. For almost half an hour. I should've taken that as a sign because it was really taking long. I called him and turns out, he was telling me to go back home. He told me that his mom wasn't feeling well.
That was okay too. But when was he going to tell me? What if I went on the bus for nothing? I tried so much not to cry because I didn't want to seem spoiled. But I couldn't help it. Everything was backfiring on me, all under 2 hours, I couldn't handle it properly. It was horrible, I looked so ridiculous in front of everyone. I should've just ran straight home, but my legs were frozen on the spot. So much for yesterday's post, everything just went upside down in a day.
I feel exactly like this.
I was going to have my bestfriend over today for reviewing and it was going well until she called me an hour and a half later saying that she's going to stick with her boyfriend. In other words, she was apologizing for ditching me.
Hmm. I was okay with that. I shrugged it off. I was used to her always choosing her boyfriend over me. It was irritating, yes, because it ruined a lot of our plans but I always kept saying to myself that it's her life and I should be happy for her. I honestly tried to.
So I called my boyfriend since we had a math exam together tomorrow and I asked him if it would be okay if we studied together. He said yes, yada yada. I got ready and I waited for the bus. For almost half an hour. I should've taken that as a sign because it was really taking long. I called him and turns out, he was telling me to go back home. He told me that his mom wasn't feeling well.
That was okay too. But when was he going to tell me? What if I went on the bus for nothing? I tried so much not to cry because I didn't want to seem spoiled. But I couldn't help it. Everything was backfiring on me, all under 2 hours, I couldn't handle it properly. It was horrible, I looked so ridiculous in front of everyone. I should've just ran straight home, but my legs were frozen on the spot. So much for yesterday's post, everything just went upside down in a day.
I feel exactly like this.