downward spiral
things have taken a turn for the worse. easter sunday my hubby said,"i can only go without sex for so long. i will divorce you." or something to that effect. is that all i am? a maid and a sex toy? just because i've been depressed and not in the mood (and lord knows he doesn't do anything to help the situation) i may end up back at my mom's. she's going to have me go back to school, get my degree, and then maybe get a condo with my sister. i've had alot on my mind lately and i've been sick the past 2 days. it's tearing me apart and some days i just don't see any point to waking up. i'm sorry to anyone that's been affected by the way i've been lately. i just haven't been very talkative to anyone as i just don't know what to do. hopefully everything will work out but if it doesn't... i may have to give up things that do make me happy (ie, djing, playing coh with friends) i'm sorry to those that think badly of me for not talking to them cuz of all my misery. my online friends are the only ones i have and i hope some of you really do care cuz it's all i have right now other than blood family. i have alot on my mind but i don't want to type it all out as i may start crying and i'm sick enough as it is. going to go lay back down now. why me....