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so i let myself experiance something new. i got so emotionally involved with James. and then the call from the stuuuuuuuuuupditajjdkthaksdfjgh army.yep yep now he will be gone for a year. a yearrrrrrrrrrrrr comento on. thats so ridiculous. but so it figures. i can sure choose them. the one that treats me right is the one that has to go. he doesnt expect me to wait for him. and i dont think that would be a good idea. and i guess maybe if i could feel somethine like this for him then maybe there will be someone else who can do the same. i never thought that i would feel anything for anyone other than nick. but right now i am angry. at whoever. the military. ya i understand good opportunity. fuck that. a yearrrr. agh a little i am mad at him too. te amo. i mean dont say that to me noooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww